Reverie
I know it's not good to have trust issues in a relationship, but it's still the early stages and we're not meeting all the time. However, we do have an agreement that we are sexually exclusive. For example, we didn't meet this weekend. Thus, although I can keep my pants on, I know that sometimes men have different standards and degrees of impulsivity. We're not talking about a man in his 20s, but a man in his 30s.
I did a mini spread to figure out the sexual energies around my partner this weekend.
In the position of "show me what happened in terms of sexuality", I drew the page of wands.
I have been drawing the page of wands consistently for him also, in terms of when I ask about sexuality in his life.
Now the clarifier is 7 of pentacles.
So the page of wands is obviously a wand, which is phallic. To be real with myself here, it seems like he might be taking opportunities to have quick uncommitted relations. I wish this weren't what I'm seeing, but it's sort of what I'm seeing. The clarifier in my deck, Fenestra, shows a man with the same expression he had when I met him - composed and almost aloof, almost waiting for something in his life to happen and take him out of his apathy and discontent. Curiously, in the 7 of pentacles, the man is resting his face on a black wand - almost seems like it's getting old or rusty or has some dark energy to it.
Hmm, so I can't figure this one out though - the page of wands. The devil would be a definite yes, the knight of wands, the ace of swords, but this page of wands? Obviously less thoughtful than the knight, but also less calculating. In this card he's actually grabbing his wand like it's ready to jump out of his hand, so if it were a possibility that it indicates a sexual encounter, it would be a 'too good to pass up' kind.
Conversely, it could be dancing, because the card is very flowy and dancey.
I do respect him and he's shown that he has values, but when it comes to sex, I'm always ready to be surprised, not in the best way.
What do you think?
I did a mini spread to figure out the sexual energies around my partner this weekend.
In the position of "show me what happened in terms of sexuality", I drew the page of wands.
I have been drawing the page of wands consistently for him also, in terms of when I ask about sexuality in his life.
Now the clarifier is 7 of pentacles.
So the page of wands is obviously a wand, which is phallic. To be real with myself here, it seems like he might be taking opportunities to have quick uncommitted relations. I wish this weren't what I'm seeing, but it's sort of what I'm seeing. The clarifier in my deck, Fenestra, shows a man with the same expression he had when I met him - composed and almost aloof, almost waiting for something in his life to happen and take him out of his apathy and discontent. Curiously, in the 7 of pentacles, the man is resting his face on a black wand - almost seems like it's getting old or rusty or has some dark energy to it.
Hmm, so I can't figure this one out though - the page of wands. The devil would be a definite yes, the knight of wands, the ace of swords, but this page of wands? Obviously less thoughtful than the knight, but also less calculating. In this card he's actually grabbing his wand like it's ready to jump out of his hand, so if it were a possibility that it indicates a sexual encounter, it would be a 'too good to pass up' kind.
Conversely, it could be dancing, because the card is very flowy and dancey.
I do respect him and he's shown that he has values, but when it comes to sex, I'm always ready to be surprised, not in the best way.
What do you think?