Need a lot of help

Rusty Neon

Heleena ... The most straightforward book on the Crowley Thoth deck is Ziegler's _Mirror of the Soul_. It is intuitively based, rather than based faithfully on Crowley's _Book of Thoth_. At the same time, a good book on esoteric symbolism, such as the _Penguin Book of Symbols_, may be helpful.

After Ziegler, the next step could be Banzhaf/Theler's _Keywords for the Crowley Tarot_, followed by Akron/Banzhaf's _Handbook to the Cards_. Eventually, you may want to try Crowley's _Book of Thoth_, supported by Duquette's book.