. The thing is Having already spent ages groping my way through Sanskrit, Pali, Chinese, Japanese and Korean vocabularies, parsing out the different doctrinal factions, "apocryphal" texts, teasing through the minutiae that can take hold of someone who is consumed by spiritual search, bumping up against full-on cults, dysfunctional and wonderful sanghas etc, etc, getting my head around astrology, numerology, kabbalah, hermeticism, alchemy and so on is a daunting prospect most days. Yet my interest persists...
Of course all this is NOT necessary to study tarot ... it seems to me you want to study a deeper side of things and tarot is the door you have come through. If that is right the following might be helpful:
1) In a way, for a serious student, what you have done is a prerequisite. I read that and think ... wow! What a head start this guy has ... he should be able to fly through vast sections of the curriculum
Have you had a look at Liber Abba Book 4? if not look through the beginning and intro.
[Sample;
e.g. “ The A∴A∴ is an organization whose heads have obtained by personal experience to the summit of this science. They have founded a system by which every one can equally attain, and that with an ease and speed which was previously impossible.
The first grade in Their system is that of
STUDENT.
A Student must possess the following books:
1.The Equinox,
2.777.
3.Konx Om Pax.
4.Collected Works of A. Crowley; Tannhauser, The Sword of Song, Time, Eleusis. 3 vols.
5.Raja Yoga, by Swami Vivekananda.
6.The Shiva Sanhita, or the Hathayoga Pradipika.
7.The Tao Teh King and the writings of Kwang Tze: S.B.E. xxxix, xl.
8.The Spiritual Guide, by Miguel de Molinos.
9.Rituel et Dogme de la Haute Magie, by Eliphas Levi, or its translation by A. E. Waite.
10.The Goetia of the Lemegeton of Solomon the King. ]
http://hermetic.com/crowley/book-4/defs.html
Also have a look at this, especially towards the end ; a degree based outline.
http://oto-ie.org/articles-2/an-intimation-towards-an-o-t-o-educational-syllabus/
I found the degree based system helpful as it outlines stages of development and focus according to ‘where one is at’ (which process in life , firstly will to incarnate - 0, Birth - 1, Life (outline) – 2, Death -3,’ Beyond’ – 4, ‘Life review’ (in greater details) 5 – to where ever (but 5 is the usual level for most).
[ Instead of just seeing a mass of stones scattered about and a diagram of a pyramid (too daunting for the likes of me) … I just looked at some stones and followed the diagram for stage one … that’s all I can cope with, focus on that … after a while … Oh , I have done that … on to stage 2. ]
At times one finds reccomendations or essentials that one has done previously and or elsewhere ... at other time one finds a process that is difficult and it seems like one may never get through it (while others find it soooo simple) .... so the potential is there to assist each other.
2) the second part ; you must have some basics in astrology? From all that other stuff? I don't believe that SUCH an in depth approach (as you seen to think is necessary) is required ... at first. Just get some BASIC Kabbalah down. And relax and do some light reading on Hermetics.
I think you might need to relax a bit. I remember one person approached Crowley with issues a BIT like yours he advised them to go and do some gardening for a while
http://www.takeabreak.com.au/photos/11837/Relaxing-in-the-garden.JPG
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A side interest ?
Art Guild of OTO Australia ;
http://www.collective777.com/#!members/c1txk