MDredhead
As you may have seen from other threads I had a failed adoption and hot on the heels of that a pregnancy that was not viable. So you could say that I have had a few speed bumps with planning for my future.
I drew three cards today asking "what is next?" and just looking for some guidance.
RWS I read reversals.
5Sw- Battles lost, walking away, alienating others, fighting for the sake of fighting, unchecked ambition, victory not worth the fight. I very much feel this. The adoption went on MUCH longer than it should have and my husband and I fought about when to quit. I saw the writing on the wall as soon as we learned our agency had been debarred but he kept urging me on for months and we spent far more money to lose out anyway and come home empty handed. The pregnancy loss will certainly alienate family as we have decided not to try again as our chances are very slim and the process is horribly emotionally and physically taxing if things go wrong as they have in the past. We have already started to get some push back.
2W-- new adventure. exploration, new horizons. I think this tells me to keep working in a different direction. My life has basically been on hold with the adoption for a year and a half. I have been bored at work and wanting to start a new business by getting into real estate. I have an online business I was using to fund the adoption and I want to expand that, too. I have thought about writing a book about my experiences, and we are buying a new house. So those are all new things. What else could this mean?
PageSwords-- This is the one I am most confused by as its a younger person with a lot of enthusiasm. Any insights on that?
I drew three cards today asking "what is next?" and just looking for some guidance.
RWS I read reversals.
5Sw- Battles lost, walking away, alienating others, fighting for the sake of fighting, unchecked ambition, victory not worth the fight. I very much feel this. The adoption went on MUCH longer than it should have and my husband and I fought about when to quit. I saw the writing on the wall as soon as we learned our agency had been debarred but he kept urging me on for months and we spent far more money to lose out anyway and come home empty handed. The pregnancy loss will certainly alienate family as we have decided not to try again as our chances are very slim and the process is horribly emotionally and physically taxing if things go wrong as they have in the past. We have already started to get some push back.
2W-- new adventure. exploration, new horizons. I think this tells me to keep working in a different direction. My life has basically been on hold with the adoption for a year and a half. I have been bored at work and wanting to start a new business by getting into real estate. I have an online business I was using to fund the adoption and I want to expand that, too. I have thought about writing a book about my experiences, and we are buying a new house. So those are all new things. What else could this mean?
PageSwords-- This is the one I am most confused by as its a younger person with a lot of enthusiasm. Any insights on that?