I'm here!!
Or at least, I am here for one hour!! Just read through all of the posts from Marion, faunabay, Jewel, and geministar. What deep work you all are doing. I am very touched by it and feel how much you have given me to consider.
I also want to update you on my SWWF work as I start my silent retreat today and won't be back online until late Sunday or Monday. I'm sure this is going to be very lengthy, but here goes...
I came to these faeries "by accident".
A friend told me about them, I opened them once, and then got busy with life. Then I decided a few weeks ago to really commit to my tarot studies and just basically jumped into every reading exchange on AT - like ya do, lol. Big mistake. I am too green, I don't have tons of time after work and house responsibilities, and I got in over my head. Lots of those little balls in the air. BUT I also felt a tremendous desire to learn, so I did all of the readings I committed to.
So with a little focus and a genuine heart check to see that, yes, this is what I wanted to do, even if I'd bitten off quite a large chunk, I followed thru on my commitments. And learned a lot. So many balls, each juggled with some degree of success, and I feel that was a successful way to manage, not my overall life or soul potential, but just the potential of that set of commitments. I like seeing it that way.
The faeries of Undressing of a Salad have been telling me that the question of tapping my potential is not ONLY about my larger life/soul purpose, although that is a big question for me as well, but it is ALSO in the details. Am I tapping my potential in the communications I have with my coworkers, speaking as clearly, non-judgmentally and articulately as I know I am capable of? Am I tapping my potential in the day-to-day interactions I have out in the world, or in what I write, or in my tarot studies?
For me, that seems to mean am I being fully present and doing the best I am capable of in the moment, not just getting by with throwaway phrases that mean I'm distracted, or unconscious behaviors that do nothing to enhance or further a relationship, some knowledge I am seeking, or my general impact in the world? They are making me think about how I spend each moment, the big and the small, and how I fulfill my potential all day long. This seems to be my place of learning right now.
As I look at the card, as has been said before, some of the faeries are just smiling peacefully and seemingly without stress. One is holding an orb as if it's a cookie that he can't wait to eat. Adroito has three balls, but there is no strain as he juggles them all. Sally holds one large ball and it is in her palm, but behind her.
I once tended to think I waS Sally, that there was one big thing I needed to know and to do, and once I figured that out, I would be happy. But Sally is looking to the left, to the past, and that is where this thought now resides.
Today, I see myself more like Adroito. I have more balls to juggle, but only one of them is in my face at this particular time, and if I am flexible and balanced, as his posture suggests, able to move in any direction as needed, I can see that a peace and joy is possible even while life is in motion.
The faerie on the left looks cranky to me. His eyes are slits, his face looks almost envious of Adroito, and he is in a hurry with those long legs, but not facing where he is going. He is too busy looking at and comparing himself to Adroito. But what I like about Adroito is that I don't see him to be showing off. His eyes are closed, he feels fully present and as if he is testing and juggling only for himself, not to threaten or impress anyone else.
The faeries tell me not to compare myself to or envy others, no matter how adept they may be at this juggling stuff. They say,
"The first step to tapping your potential is to start where you are." So that is what I am going to be paying attention to.
I will close for now as it is time to head for the retreat. I'm going to look forward to catching up with everyone's posts when I return, and I will keep a journal with me on my retreat so that I can update the group on sunday or monday.
Much love,
Keavy