31
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1951
1990 = 1+9+9+0 = 19
19 = my personality card - The Sun
1+9 = 10 = my creativity card - The Wheel of Fortune
1+0 = 1 = my soul card - The Magician
Arrrrrgggghhhh! Actually, it is the only number that gives you three cards. It results in a complex life. This is reflected in my natal chart as well, and at almost 55, I can tell you that it has been reflected in my life.
In spite of genetically inherited major depression with is active at various levels at all times, I appear to be of sunny temperament ... and I am, when I am not doing my Virgo Hermit act (my survivial mechanism). My life has been a series of cycles of creative energies of about 10 years duration each, at the end of which, whatever I was doing becomes completely uninteresting to me. There are a couple of years of restlessness towards the end of each cycle as I move from one period of creativity into another. But, there is a thread that connects them all, and on which each grows, even though it appears to the external world that I have completely changed direction.
The Magician ... all my life I have used sentences which begin with 'the trick is to ....' ... so I am the trickster who mostly tricks herself. I am the illusionist. In fact, as a young child, my goal was to be a contornionist when I grew up. But, on the other side ... like Hermes I am mutable, changeable, presto-change, travel light with wings on my feet, the communicator, and the channel of energies. Currently, it is channelled into deck creation - I am well aware that I need to complete this project - which is without question a calling - in a 10 year time span because, hey presto chango, I will be off in another direction.
This 10 wheel process is also able to be tracked within 10 day, 10 week and 10 month cycles, within the greater cycle of ten years. This year I am also in a 10 year. Double Whammy. 'Tis very cool ... getting to ride the wheel of fortune, knowing that no one part of the cycle matters more than any other, it always turns and things always change, constantly creating ... so bad will get better, good it not to be grasped ... it all flows.
mythos smiles like the sun, doing somersaults around the floor (in her Mercurial magician's mind) - so these are my cards
mythos