Reading this thread has been a healing experience...truly!
I've known for awhile that I have a slight addiction when it comes to buying decks. I justified it by thinking everyone has a splurge weakness. For some it's shoes, and for me it's tarot.
Looking at my recent past, I get on binges where I go over board (aka over spend) on anything I think will make me a *better* person. More enlightened. Take away the pain and answer the longing questions. Tarot is a journey, and can help with all all of the above, however, I guess I kept hoping for the deck that would really work the magic.
I've had to change my habits. Ebay is not allowed, unless I am selling. Youtube tarot reviews are a no-no. Need to stop cold-turkey for awhile. When it's under control, maybe a couple decks a year. And I will need to be very discriminating.
It helps that it's now spring where I live. Longer days, being outdoors, walking with fur-babies and digging in the garden can heal and bring peace, too.
I think I'm coming to terms with my need for new tarot and how to cope.