looking for help...

PrincessSerenity

So I am going through a not-so-nice period right now,a very stressful, anxious (in a bad way) and difficult time. Last week I saw my new doctor for the first time, and found out something my OLD doctor failed to tell me. between April and June 2008 I had an abnormal pap (not my first one either) and I saw the specialist in Nov about it. In Nov the specialist did a biopsy and it came back as positive for a pre-cancerous legion(sp?) I JUST found this out LAST week. So for the last 7+ months I've been developing cancer (so not cool) that could have been prevented! 7 months ago if someone (anyone) had told me to go see the specilist again (when I asked my doctor about the results she said they were normal). So I don't see a specialist again until June 3 to find out if it's still removable as is or if I actually have cancer yet.

I want to look to my cards for some guidance in making it through the next month, and what to do if I do have cancer (I know that answer may SEEM obvious to some of you but either from fear or what not to me it's NOT)

I'm new to reading and I've had much success with the readings of done on love and myself, but I don't even know where to begin with this topic as I'm still filled with fear when it comes to this, and still trying to avoid it as much as possible, which may not be helping me to get past the fear thing.
 

septemberwitch

Sorry to hear about your situation and try not to worry. I know that's easy for me to say, I am about to have hysterectomy surgery myself soon, but no due to cancer... I don't think? I am not sure how I can help with this.. Have you pulled a card to help you with your questions?

BB
 

PrincessSerenity

honestly I'm new to tarot, I just got my first deck yesterday and I have only tried the spreads in the book, I don't even know what kind of spread to use, or what to ask, I think I'm still in a state of shock about this whole ordeal (I wish I didn't want more kids then this wouldn't be so hard about loosing the ability to have children at 22)
 

septemberwitch

If your very new to tarot maybe pulling cards and spreads is not a good idea right now.. With out a basic knowledge of the cards,you could be very upset by some images on some of them and it could do more harm than good with out a deep knowledge of the cards. Because even though some cards seem like they are bad they can mean other things that you might not understand and it isnt'n worth making your mind run amoke. For instance the Death card is not usually about Death.. It most often refers to a transformation and beginning a new way of life... so it's a very positive card in most cases. That is just my 2 cents. So sorry to hear that your ill. But try to remember the strongest power of all, is your own mind. Focus on health as much as possible, I know it's not easy, but try as much as possible to drive out thoughts of illness.. SEE yourself coming through this!

Best Wishes
Blessed Be
 

Sinduction

I went through the same thing, as did one of my friends (with the pre-cancerous cells). It is quite common and you needn't worry. The cells in that part of the body, this all what my doc told me btw, reproduce slowly. Sometimes the abnormal cells just have not been naturally shed by the body quickly enough, and then you have an abnormal pap. I had a biopsy, which showed abnormal, aka pre-cancerous cells. They wanted to do cryo-surgery, to freeze the cells off, I opted to wait until my next pap to see if they had shed. My insurance company won't approve the procedure and I can't afford it.

If my doc told me I was safe to wait a year, I'm sure 7 months is ok. My friend, who did have the cryo-surgery is just fine and about to have her second baby. Don't worry about it. I'd switch doctors and have another pap and go from there. The surgery isn't even a big deal. If I remember correctly, my friend was given a local and said it was the same as a regular gyno exam.

I was as freaked out as you are now, but once it was explained to me, it really is not as dire as it seems. The trouble with docs is that they forget us mere mortals don't know these things! :D

That said, I doubt you are in any state to read tarot, esp being new. I know I wouldn't be. Call a new doc tomorrow and make an appointment. Feel free to pm me if you want/need more info.
 

PrincessSerenity

thank you my dear, and I'm not afraid of what the cards will tell me I'm just anxious about that which I can not know for another month. I am wiccan and have been studying tarot for a while I'm just new to practicing it, I doubt it could do more harm then good with me and my in depth and careful deciphering of each card and all it's possible meanings, I let the cards speak to me and don't focus on only one aspect of the card but the card as a whole and as it may relate to the question, the most "obvious" answers are never really the "true" answers, or does that only make sense to me LOL well thank you anyways my dear many a blessings to you and yours. and thanks for the good thoughts

and sinduction, thank you for all of that information, that right there was the simple bit of knowledge I needed to be able to sleep at night again, thank you so much!!!! (a million extra thanks for throwing in the part about having her second baby cause thats what really has me upset the most)
 

Briar Rose

Many blessings to you :heart:
 

Lunar

I just wanted to add my experience and hope it will help you, i had the same thing too, 25 years ago, i was so afraid and worried.. all sorts of things were going round in my head, my children were so young at the time and i was fearful that i would'nt see them grow up!!
I had had these pre-cancerous cells for over a year, but my consultant said not to worry as it not actual cancer, i had them lasered off under a local anesthetic and was out of hospital the same day, and have not had any problems since! 25 years on and im still here, so please try not to worry, im sure you will be fine

Lunar x
 

SkadisPhoenix

If you've done a lot of studying of tarot, then there are a few health spreads in the tarot spread index: http://www.tarotforum.net/showthread.php?t=31867

I have no idea how hard things must be for you, I wish you all the best, and as SeptemberWitch said, try not to worry about it too much. Again, easier said than done, but you've come to a great place for advice and support.

Good luck - Skadi's Phoenix
 

allecto

Perhaps asking someone else to read for you might help? This would give a little distance in the reading but could still offer you some guidance.
Love and light
~a
 
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