Xmas Gift-Energy experiment

[DownwardSpiral]

I did ask what was the message from your guides 'let it be'
the is a lot of anger in this situation from the work side, they feel your stubborn and wont just leave things alone and they are out to get you, waiting for the foot wrong.

however i asked what was going on, and asked your guides what you could do to improve the situation, they said there is nothing to do, let it be what it needs to be, things are moving into place for you.

I feel this is all the master plan, and at the moment you need to work it out, and even though its not nice understand that there is a plan for you, just continue to do your job.
message from your guides:
speak to us, we are here but you are sporadic, you do not remember us very often and therefore you are feeling a bit lost about the situation, you have not been abandoned and plans do not change, but sometimes its uncomfortable for a bit, but change is like that and sometimes we need to force situation. speak to us and we will explain more, and we will re-assure you that everything is well, do not take this personally and remember that you need to continue to work on yourself, do not take what they say to heart, protect your energy, you have not been very good at doing this and therefore this is causing you greater distress. protect yourself and make sure you cover your back when protecting as some people are aiming for it, but if you protect your own energy this will allow you to have easier days.

let your soul speak to you, i feel that it wants to be heard more, it wants to be more connected to the rest of you, its rising up trying to get you to listen to it. 'all will be well in the end' i am being told.

well am sorry that wasnt more help, but you seem to have the tools to sort this out yourself, step back from the situation, remember the skills you have to protect yourself

This is actually a big help in that I know it's not just my imagination and yet it is so hard to just "let it be". And again the nudge from my guides to give them more time. Ok so I need to make the effort to speak to my guides and hopefully find out what this is really all about. It is so hard not to take things personally....I feel like I'm being attacked. I'm being given direct orders and when I put in for overtime someone comes out to my route to check on me. I'm on the list for overtime yet everyone was circled to come in today but me. I'm beginning to see why my old route was eliminated. I even had my supervisor tell the union rep. he didn't like the way I spoke to him......so I was told I need to learn to speak to people. I could go on and on. It's all a game and I hate games...and this is one game I can't walk away from.

" you need to continue to work on yourself,"......yes this I am trying to do and am getting alot of resistance for it but know it's important. I'll take this as a heads up.

I'll work on protecting myself ......this was actually on my mind today. That and what I can do to repel them : )

Thanks so much for this reading Red : ) When I can get on the desktop I'm going to print this out and carry it with me.....as a reminder to "let it be".

 

[Melisandre]

Hi
I initially found that you werent completely comfortable with your feminity, like your not sure it fits properly at the moment, you really need to try and accept you are a feminine woman and we all need both the yin and the yang, so you need both feminine and masculine parts of you to be intergrated within, not to have a man to be the masculine part of you.

Hi Red! First off, thank you so much for doing this reading for me It is truly appreciated. I've always been a girly girl, not a tomboy bone in my body. But I don't think that's the point, is it? The truth is I can be very passive and nurturing but I rarely stand up for myself. I don't know how to say "no" because I feel bad turning anyone away. So actually this does make sense.

your trust has been broken in the past so you keep people at a distance.

Yes, this is true, I have had my trust broken over and over again in relationships. Even though I say I want to find love, I find it difficult to trust and to be vulnerable enough to open up to someone.

the word love to you is about purity, innocence, you beleive love has to be a certain way, it has to be love at first sight, it has to be dramatic, perhaps you need to have a look at what love means to you a bit more.

I'm definitely not a "love at first sight" type. I don't even believe in that. BUT, I do think love should be pure and innocent i.e., no lying, no manipulation, no steamrolling the other person to boost your own ego, you should have high intentions in terms of being with the other person. As far as the dramatic thing goes - I often think I've been conditioned to feel that "love" has to be dramatic, a rollercoaster of sorts, because anyone I've ever been in a "love" relationship with, has always been up and down, hot and cold, emotionally dramatic. I've only ever had one relationship that wasn't full of drama. And so I now equate relationships with drama, which I want to avoid at all costs right now.

there is something in your past that you want nothing to do with, you have slammed the door but at the moment your still linked to it so its holding you back, so you will have to look at that to move forward. lessons are still to be learnt from this relationship. you need to forgive yourself for the past, accept the past for what it is. you need to let go of him properly, not just pay lipservice, let him go completely. i felt like i was a parachute and the past is dragging you down by the cords you still have there, one particular cord is very strong. you need to accept the past not surpress it to move forward to a 'bright future'

I know this isn't about an ex as in the PERSON, because I really have no feelings for any of them at this point. But I do have one ex who was particularly toxic, and who continues to pop up in my life trying to contact me. I had a hard enough time letting go of that relationship as it stood, and yes, I guess I still need to let go of the hurt that came with all that. So I think this might be about the baggage I've accumulated as a result of that relationship.

masculinity is too 'foriegn' to you. you might have had issues with the father figure in your life,was your dad very strict? you link masculinity with denial of things, limitations, hardness, you want to be only feminine which is soft, pure, and loverable.
if you understood that strength and power were not wrong you would be able to still be soft and loveable but with a strong powerful core....and still be feminine.

I can see this. I don't really know if it's about my dad...he was a little strict growing up, but we had (and continue to have) a wonderful relationship. I think this might be about my earlier experiences with romantic relationships than the father-daughter relationship. I guess I do link masculinity with denial, limits, hardness, coldness - but that's because of the majority of my exes. Like I said before, I can be passive. I don't always speak my mind because I'm afraid of hurting others' feelings. I have a hard time saying no. I always want to be agreeable and accommodating, often to my own detriment. I guess I need to access my "masculine" side so that I will stop allowing myself to be walked all over.

i got the word equality at the end.it feels like your wanting someone to have a certain size box to fill, and thats what you dont want to be, so you want someone else to be the hard/bad/powerful/strong person because that means you have to be strict and limiting and you dont want to do that. so i would look at how you feel about masculinity.

Honestly I wonder if "equality" is just about finding an equal partner. It's funny because when people ask me what I want in a guy, I use that word a lot. I want someone who can give as well as take, who treats me as an equal.

Thank you so much, again. I think overall what I got from this is that I need to learn my own power, to stand up for myself, to say no to people and situations that aren't good for me, and that maybe by BEING balanced myself, I will attract an equal partner. This was very helpful!

 

[214red]

Hi Red! First off, thank you so much for doing this reading for me It is truly appreciated. I've always been a girly girl, not a tomboy bone in my body. But I don't think that's the point, is it? The truth is I can be very passive and nurturing but I rarely stand up for myself. I don't know how to say "no" because I feel bad turning anyone away. So actually this does make sense.

ha ha ha i was always a tomboy so i am used to telling people to go away, but not being vulnerable and passive, i usually want to take the male role, and took me years to become more feminine

I'm definitely not a "love at first sight" type. I don't even believe in that. BUT, I do think love should be pure and innocent i.e., no lying, no manipulation, no steamrolling the other person to boost your own ego, you should have high intentions in terms of being with the other person. As far as the dramatic thing goes - I often think I've been conditioned to feel that "love" has to be dramatic, a rollercoaster of sorts, because anyone I've ever been in a "love" relationship with, has always been up and down, hot and cold, emotionally dramatic. I've only ever had one relationship that wasn't full of drama. And so I now equate relationships with drama, which I want to avoid at all costs right now.

you might not think your a love at first sight person but it stands in your energy, it was a very clear phrase i got, so i would perhaps explore that further to see what pops up, the love at first sight often goes with the idea of things being dramantic, because we think the chemistry means its meant to be...and the drama is usually part of intense relationships. sit with this for a few weeks and have a think about it.

I know this isn't about an ex as in the PERSON, because I really have no feelings for any of them at this point. But I do have one ex who was particularly toxic, and who continues to pop up in my life trying to contact me. I had a hard enough time letting go of that relationship as it stood, and yes, I guess I still need to let go of the hurt that came with all that. So I think this might be about the baggage I've accumulated as a result of that relationship.

i would say that i was told specifically its a HIM, so even though there is baggage, its still about him as a person too and that relationship.

I can see this. I don't really know if it's about my dad...he was a little strict growing up, but we had (and continue to have) a wonderful relationship. I think this might be about my earlier experiences with romantic relationships than the father-daughter relationship. I guess I do link masculinity with denial, limits, hardness, coldness - but that's because of the majority of my exes. Like I said before, I can be passive. I don't always speak my mind because I'm afraid of hurting others' feelings. I have a hard time saying no. I always want to be agreeable and accommodating, often to my own detriment. I guess I need to access my "masculine" side so that I will stop allowing myself to be walked all over.

I am not saying the relationship with your dad was bad, but our father is our first romantic role model in life, and our mother is the feminine, so perhaps its even seeing them together, or its seeing it in your dad sometimes. so i would urge you to look at your romantic ideas and start with your father, it often saves time to start at the beginnng and work forwards.

Honestly I wonder if "equality" is just about finding an equal partner. It's funny because when people ask me what I want in a guy, I use that word a lot. I want someone who can give as well as take, who treats me as an equal.

you need to be equal to find an equal partner, rather then one to make up the masculine side.

Thank you so much, again. I think overall what I got from this is that I need to learn my own power, to stand up for myself, to say no to people and situations that aren't good for me, and that maybe by BEING balanced myself, I will attract an equal partner. This was very helpful!

yes you have hit the nail on the head, being both yin/yang in you means you will atttact the same in a mate

I have clarified a few things here as i likely didnt make them clear.

please ask me for any clarifications you need, also i am sure that you will find that signs pointing to things in this reading will appear in the next few weeks, your unconscious bubbling up into your conscious mind

 

[214red]

That's interesting because im always saying to myself how I can't wait to be past this inbeteeen stage and just be an established and secure adult. I also don't want to go back to school because of debt. I just want a stable job that I can nest and grow in. I'm 24 years old and recently quit my job to search for a new one. I am still trying to find balance between the masculine and feminine. I'm a girl but used to be a very big tom boy. I went through a phase recently where I fully became comfortable in my more feminine traits hut yes, my more masculine traits seem to be coming out a bit more. Its my more aggressive side which I'm still learning to temper. I wouldn't say that im afraid of change, though. I do like to have plans but I often times will take grand risks to evacuate my situation if it really displeases me. I have issues with allowing myself to feel complacent or top comfortable.

okay now i need to explain myself some, i realised when i have done these readings i am not working with your conscious awareness, i am working with your energy, and your energy is not always saying the same as your conscious mind, so this might feel that it differs from what you think, but its held in your energy and is indeed a block, just not in your awareness yet.

 

[214red]

Can I be put on the waiting list?

Real simple.....focus on love in the future.

Thank you!

B

Okay as i have said it will not be around the future but your issues with love at this present time, allowing you to work on them as you wish

you are welcoming the thoughts of the future, you have open arms and are asking it to move forward, however your not wanting to look at the future at all, this is leading to an imbalance because there are things there that still need to be looked at, if not will be brought into the future you want.
faced with the idea of a partner i asked what you wanted, i got the word 'everything' and this seems like your arms are open wide for someone that is everything, but your actually not too sure what you want, only what you dont want, so you have asked for the universe for everything...this can lead to issues as what you see as everything, others might not see. to really know someone else you need to know yourself well enough to know what you want, as this is sending confusing messages out to the universe on what you want, even though your asking for it now.
there is an issue with you expressing your need for a partner and what you want in love, i feel very choked up when trying to talk to the partner energy. there is a very dreamy quality to the way you feel when you think about love and a partner, its like you go all doe eyed, which is lovely, but its also a little bit rose tinted, especially when we look at your energies reaction to the word' trust' there is a strong no there, so for some reason there is a seperation from love with the way you think about love.

the word sexuality is greeted with a push me pull me feeling, it feels like your not completely comfortable with your own sexuality, so i would examine your feelings here as it might be that you are still struggling with the idea of conforming to your childhood conditioning (sex is wrong, or good girls dont do that) .

masculinity, even though i have said this to the others, there is an issue with masculinity too, the roles in which men sit in might be something to look at too, i felt choked up when faced with this and unable to express what i feel .
I am going to ask if there is alot of seperation in your life, do you have boxes for people and things, things are kept seperate from another, and put in compartments never to rub on each other?

I must say your enegry does not have an adverse reaction to many of the words, so i dont think you are far off finding who you want. however the universe cannot delivery what they dont know, and at some point it would be easier for you to cosmic order the man you want, so instead of having the men delievered, you then decide you dont like an aspect of them and send them on their way, you can actually get what you want without having to go through the not always fabulous experiences. knowing what you want will also push you to define your role as a g/f , and the role you see as partner to enable you to decide what kind of relationship you want.

also remember to look at the past and work on any loose ends

 

[214red]

Explaination of what i am doing

I realised i didnt explain what i was doing, i assumed many would know, and thats my failing. when i am doing work here, i am only working with your energy, now your energy makes up part of your whole, but is not always a conscious part of you, your conscious mind (Cm)is only part of what makes you up.

So i may say things that sound alien to you, however this is because its carried in your energy and therefore even if its not what your CM thinks, its still there as a block. so you might think that your putting out certain energy, but if your energy still contains conflicts etc, then these will stop you bringing what you want to you.

I am working but linking to your energy and then introducing words to your energy, i then see and feel the reaction and note that down. The kind of words i am using are below:
Femininity
Anger
Love
unknown
masculinity
mother
father
partner
baby
family
work
career
money
finance
grandparents
sexuality
family

some words get a hit, i then delve further into that reaction to find out more about it, and anything the universe thinks would be interesting for you to know.this is on a public forum so somethings i wont go into, i will simply ask you to look into the issue as its there as a block and its stopping you getting what you want.

 

[214red]

You have been very good to me, so i only ask for one if you have time and space, if not i will give my place up for another xxx

How do i move forward with my love life?

thanks dear xx

okay SB

so looking at the word 'past' i get the phrase 'held back, put away' and there is a sense that it feels stilted, so the past is still in the present, its not in its proper place, i also feel that its being gripped on very firmly, and your energy is not ready to put it back behind you.
Partner- this word feels like you want to strangle the person, but i dont feel its one person its in particular, its like things have accumulated and the partner is all the men who have let you down in the past. so if you have a current person, he is attoning for the sins of past men, not just his sins. there is also a sense of blame, on both sides, but blame for entering into something that didnt turn out as promised, you also have a similar response to the word father. the strangling doesnt link to any bitterness or hatred, it someways its done in a light way (if you can strangle someone lightly..lol) but a bit indulgently like you do a child, your child might drive you mad sometimes but you love them. this feeling with partners feels that your not treating them as equals in the start, you indulge them and in some ways baby them, you are the mother and they are little rascals, this is making the roles confused. is your father a lovable rogue? i dont mean a real rogue but i mean perhaps he got away with a few things and he was seen still as a saint? this is coming through to your relationships with partners.

Love- the word comes out with 'restrictive' and i feel you put restrictions on what you have decided is love, so you have decided what the definition is, and this is suited to you, not so much the other person, they need to fit into this idealised idea (its not a romantized view though) , people who dont are discarded as they dont love you. this is a distorted view of what love is , there is a big question mark for you on what love truly is.it would be wise for you to try and define what you feel love is, and then see how the hat fits to your previous partners

Trust- mis needs to be put infront of it apparently according to you, you always go into a relationship deciding to be mistrusting of them, i get the phrase 'they are not you'. mis-trust means you always start on the wrong foot, they always have to make up ground with you to get your love, to work for it, so there is some sense of payback when you fall for them because then they have control. love and trust are not about control.

Masculinity- not this is a weird one, your very up and down with this one, you like it and hate it, you want it but dont want it. i would do some work on this as it seems that there is something you need to find a middle ground on.

there is alot of proving that a man needs to do to you, and it feels like you like the victory but perhaps dont want the end result, you can be a mender but do you actually want the finish result.there doesnt seem to a be a middle ground with you, men have become the bad guys that you love, but ultimately let you down..women are the saviours, i would look at your mothers role in the family, was she the saint to your fathers rogue? it feels that your trust in women doesnt allow you to also trust men, so you live a life of opposites, you fancy men but you give them conditions and rules and limits, but women in your life and limitless, perhaps there is a middle ground?if you take away who is a bad guy and who is the nice guy, what do you have left? you have reality


Hope that makes sense

 

[Bluebonnet]

Feedback

Thank you very much for the reading!

Okay as i have said it will not be around the future but your issues with love at this present time, allowing you to work on them as you wish

you are welcoming the thoughts of the future, you have open arms and are asking it to move forward, however your not wanting to look at the future at all, this is leading to an imbalance because there are things there that still need to be looked at, if not will be brought into the future you want.

Well, yes, I am looking forward to a positive future. I do want a family. I definitely do not want a future of growing old alone.

faced with the idea of a partner i asked what you wanted, i got the word 'everything' and this seems like your arms are open wide for someone that is everything, but your actually not too sure what you want, only what you dont want, so you have asked for the universe for everything...this can lead to issues as what you see as everything, others might not see. to really know someone else you need to know yourself well enough to know what you want, as this is sending confusing messages out to the universe on what you want, even though your asking for it now.

No, I do know what I want. I'm just realizing that I may not get it. I'm independent, successful, and outgoing so I want someone who is very similar. I don't want someone who is lazy and is going to leach off of me.

there is an issue with you expressing your need for a partner and what you want in love, i feel very choked up when trying to talk to the partner energy. there is a very dreamy quality to the way you feel when you think about love and a partner, its like you go all doe eyed, which is lovely, but its also a little bit rose tinted, especially when we look at your energies reaction to the word' trust' there is a strong no there, so for some reason there is a seperation from love with the way you think about love.

I'm a little confused about this one. Is it saying I'm looking for perfection...or I have rose colored glasses and ignoring the flaws?

the word sexuality is greeted with a push me pull me feeling, it feels like your not completely comfortable with your own sexuality, so i would examine your feelings here as it might be that you are still struggling with the idea of conforming to your childhood conditioning (sex is wrong, or good girls dont do that) .

Hmmmm....I have never had any problems or complaints in this area. I sometimes think I have had too many partners.

masculinity, even though i have said this to the others, there is an issue with masculinity too, the roles in which men sit in might be something to look at too, i felt choked up when faced with this and unable to express what i feel .
I am going to ask if there is alot of seperation in your life, do you have boxes for people and things, things are kept seperate from another, and put in compartments never to rub on each other?

I don't understand this question about separating people and things.

I must say your enegry does not have an adverse reaction to many of the words, so i dont think you are far off finding who you want. however the universe cannot delivery what they dont know, and at some point it would be easier for you to cosmic order the man you want, so instead of having the men delievered, you then decide you dont like an aspect of them and send them on their way, you can actually get what you want without having to go through the not always fabulous experiences. knowing what you want will also push you to define your role as a g/f , and the role you see as partner to enable you to decide what kind of relationship you want.

also remember to look at the past and work on any loose ends

Ok....I wasn't aware you can order what I want from the universe. I'll have to try. Thanks again for the reading.

B

 

[strangebrew]

okay SB

so looking at the word 'past' i get the phrase 'held back, put away' and there is a sense that it feels stilted, so the past is still in the present, its not in its proper place, i also feel that its being gripped on very firmly, and your energy is not ready to put it back behind you.
Partner- this word feels like you want to strangle the person, but i dont feel its one person its in particular, its like things have accumulated and the partner is all the men who have let you down in the past. so if you have a current person, he is attoning for the sins of past men, not just his sins. there is also a sense of blame, on both sides, but blame for entering into something that didnt turn out as promised, you also have a similar response to the word father. the strangling doesnt link to any bitterness or hatred, it someways its done in a light way (if you can strangle someone lightly..lol) but a bit indulgently like you do a child, your child might drive you mad sometimes but you love them. this feeling with partners feels that your not treating them as equals in the start, you indulge them and in some ways baby them, you are the mother and they are little rascals, this is making the roles confused. is your father a lovable rogue? i dont mean a real rogue but i mean perhaps he got away with a few things and he was seen still as a saint? this is coming through to your relationships with partners.

Love- the word comes out with 'restrictive' and i feel you put restrictions on what you have decided is love, so you have decided what the definition is, and this is suited to you, not so much the other person, they need to fit into this idealised idea (its not a romantized view though) , people who dont are discarded as they dont love you. this is a distorted view of what love is , there is a big question mark for you on what love truly is.it would be wise for you to try and define what you feel love is, and then see how the hat fits to your previous partners

Trust- mis needs to be put infront of it apparently according to you, you always go into a relationship deciding to be mistrusting of them, i get the phrase 'they are not you'. mis-trust means you always start on the wrong foot, they always have to make up ground with you to get your love, to work for it, so there is some sense of payback when you fall for them because then they have control. love and trust are not about control.

Masculinity- not this is a weird one, your very up and down with this one, you like it and hate it, you want it but dont want it. i would do some work on this as it seems that there is something you need to find a middle ground on.

there is alot of proving that a man needs to do to you, and it feels like you like the victory but perhaps dont want the end result, you can be a mender but do you actually want the finish result.there doesnt seem to a be a middle ground with you, men have become the bad guys that you love, but ultimately let you down..women are the saviours, i would look at your mothers role in the family, was she the saint to your fathers rogue? it feels that your trust in women doesnt allow you to also trust men, so you live a life of opposites, you fancy men but you give them conditions and rules and limits, but women in your life and limitless, perhaps there is a middle ground?if you take away who is a bad guy and who is the nice guy, what do you have left? you have reality


Hope that makes sense

thanks for the reading!! yes no middle ground, i represent the true essence of Scorpio...extremes always!!!

i do know what love truly is though, i have a son who i love unconditionally, it never waivers and has stayed strong always...i never feel i couldnt love him even when he really pushes me to the edge

but with the relationship love, yes it is something i have always battled with...probably always will!! I think after the love i feel for my son, i couldnt give even half of that to a man, not sure i want to now either...i have enough love for my son, myself and my friends

thanks!
x

 

[214red]

Thank you very much for the reading!

Well, yes, I am looking forward to a positive future. I do want a family. I definitely do not want a future of growing old alone.

its good to look at the future but there isnt enough balance, balance is both being happy in the present, looking forward to the future, and being happy to remember the past, at the moment there is a bit too much emphasis on the future, not a big issue, but you might want to be in the present a bit more, and also sort out the past too so it doesnt come with you to the future.

No, I do know what I want. I'm just realizing that I may not get it. I'm independent, successful, and outgoing so I want someone who is very similar. I don't want someone who is lazy and is going to leach off of me.

something in your energy doesnt know, so if you do know, you need to work on making sure all of you is in alignment. also think about the type of relationship you want, do you want one were you are both so independant you lead your own lives? or do you want someone who is indepentant but willing to share, and how much are you willing to share?
do you want a mirror image or someone to compliment you? these are the type of questions that might help you start working on what you want

I'm a little confused about this one. Is it saying I'm looking for perfection...or I have rose colored glasses and ignoring the flaws?

Both, your looking for perfection, at the same time you have these rose tinted glasses on about love and so therefore noone will match up to what you want as reality is still lovely, great and amazing, but will it compare to our dreams all the time?
Also the seperation between love and trust is one that might not help you create a family, can you love without trust? can you love someone one but not trust him with your money for example? these should be hand in hand, if you love someone do you not trust them with your heart?i would try thinking about what you think trust is, and how you trust in love.

Hmmmm....I have never had any problems or complaints in this area. I sometimes think I have had too many partners.

I don't understand this question about separating people and things.

This is not saying you have problems sexually, in your energy there is a push me pull me part of you, part of you loves it, part of you perhaps doesnt think they should have it or have it so often or enjoy it so much. i am not faulting your performance, this is purely your energy

Ok....I wasn't aware you can order what I want from the universe. I'll have to try. Thanks again for the reading.

B

you can order what you want, but the hardest thing is to order the right thing, by knowing yourself you can order whats right for you. i would look up cosmic ordering and LAW