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Originally Posted by Sophie-David
{{{ Kahlie }}}
Well done Kahlie! That took great courage and will! These dreams are very tough to go through, but an important part of healing! From my own experience, it is not the actual person who is the perpetrator who is so hard to deal with - he or she can often be avoided - but it is the internalization of that figure within your own psyche that can cause so much trouble. May there soon come a day when he can no longer hurt you, even in dreams!
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Thanks David! Well the actual person is also hard to deal with. He tried to contact me several times after. It's hard to see how apparently, he still thinks he could ask me to go and see a movie...
This night, I had a rather disturbing dream that I was pregnant. I was very anxious, because I wasn't supposed too. But I could feel the heartbeat of the baby. I was afraid and at the same time willing to miscarry. Very odd. I went to the shower, which was a rather weird one... I could press buttons and then the showerhead would move and shower me there. (Would be nice in real life). I remembered thinking: "oh, now that I am pregnant I should remove the ring (nuvaring) and then woke up...
Edited: This could be a reference to the Kroatian Spirit. I'm sure she was pregnant after rape... The thing is, it FELT like me... And I'm sure the Spirit has moved on. I saw her...
Maybe that's what the dream symbolised? The Shower shows the cleansing?
It's very odd, especially the dream sequences before that dream, that focussed on the fact that there would be break in, but we could detect it through infra red? I saw a big eye twice... Filling my vision. Only in black, stylized.
Edited: Hmmm... dummy me. Maybe this is a reference to Spiritual Trouble/break-in. And the infra-red, a light spectrum we normally can't see... The Eyes... that would fit. Another warning? I've been doing protection...
Somebody went by, and a pack of Cards from his hands, fell a story up into mine. Then I had to go to the next door neighbours to return it to him. I did, but I was very uncomfortable and the room was filled with people... I remember not greeting all of them, just kind of waving and getting out soon...
I don't see any connections... Except with fear and "this is not right", "can't be true" and willingness... I did some meditations on willingness yesterday in the afternoon...
It's odd. I just "know" these dreams are trying to tell me something, but it's hard to see the significance. I guess it's because pregnancy is such a heavy issue for me. Emotionally, I wanted it for a long time. Intellectually and Physically, it's not possible at least, at this time.
Ok. Now I see the pattern of Break-in followed by pregnancy dream... Odd that it would take me 3 days before working through what happened... Well, it isn't that odd after all... Now I'm just wondering about the returning of the Cards...
Kahlie, who is still thinking...
P.S. My Spirit Guide is a morph =) He morphes in whatever is appropriate for me to learn my lesson. Haven't seen him yet in human form.