Liralen
Hello Daniel,
I had a few dreams for you. Here they are:
1. A Buddhist priest wants to give me a medallion that, for some reason, signifies marriage. I ask the priest to give it to a woman standing next to me. I say I don't need such a thing, but I'm really only pretending I don't.
2. I'm looking at a website that tells you about an occupational re-training programme that enables you to change careers and become a teacher.
3. I'm on the internet and use a computer that other people also have access to. I realize that they all can see my browsing history and I feel slightly uneasy about it. Not that I've looked at anything unacceptable, I just don't want to feel so exposed.
4. In the next dream, I'm moving out of the apartment I lived in as a student. I realize that the place looks rather run-down and shabby. All the furniture is already gone, but there is a large potted plant in one corner. I think to myself "My god, I had completely forgotten about this plant, I haven't watered it in YEARS, it's a miracle that it's still alive." And the plant is not only alive, it's actually rather healthy, the earth in the pot is dry and cracked, but only a few leaves are withered, most of it is still nice and green.
My mother is there, too, to help me move the washing-machine, and I feel resentful towards her, but I don't remember why.
5. In the last dream, I wake up and feel there is some crumbly material in my mouth. I worry that my teeth are broken, but they are okay. The material is some kind of black plastic. I panic slightly because I realise someone has put a sleep-inducing drug into my mouth to put me into a really deep sleep. The plastic is the remains of the bag that the drug was in.
I think the first and the third dream suggest that you don't feel too comfortable showing how you feel. Perhaps you don't like to admit, even to yourself, that you have emotional needs. You say you've been focusing on your spiritual development but neglected your emotions - I think there are some spiritual traditions, Buddhism for example, that may foster misunderstandings about this area because they stress the importance of non-attachment. I don't believe this concept means you aren't allowed to have any desires or needs anymore. I think it only means that you can achieve a state of joy that comes from within rather than without. So it's better to admit that you do have emotional needs - we all do.
The fourth and the fifth dream indicate that you are worried about your emotional health because you neglected it for so long, but you don't have to be too worried. Your emotional health is better than you think now, it only needs some nurturing. You mentioned an inner child meditation - I wonder if there are also emotional issues you need to look at that stem from the time when you were a young adult. Perhaps there were some conflicts with your mother about becoming independent?
In the fifth dream, the drug that made you unconscious was given to you by someone else. So I think you should ask yourself why you repressed your emotions for such a long time. Probably you wanted to protect not only yourself, but also the people who hurt you - it must have seemed less painful to you to forget about your hurts than to confront those people. Maybe now is the time to do so.
I think the second dream might mean that any training programme involving pedagogics and/or psychology might help you. If you learn how to help others access their emotional needs, you will have an easier time connecting with your own.
I hope there was something in those dreams that helps you, Daniel ! Please let me know what you think.
I had a few dreams for you. Here they are:
1. A Buddhist priest wants to give me a medallion that, for some reason, signifies marriage. I ask the priest to give it to a woman standing next to me. I say I don't need such a thing, but I'm really only pretending I don't.
2. I'm looking at a website that tells you about an occupational re-training programme that enables you to change careers and become a teacher.
3. I'm on the internet and use a computer that other people also have access to. I realize that they all can see my browsing history and I feel slightly uneasy about it. Not that I've looked at anything unacceptable, I just don't want to feel so exposed.
4. In the next dream, I'm moving out of the apartment I lived in as a student. I realize that the place looks rather run-down and shabby. All the furniture is already gone, but there is a large potted plant in one corner. I think to myself "My god, I had completely forgotten about this plant, I haven't watered it in YEARS, it's a miracle that it's still alive." And the plant is not only alive, it's actually rather healthy, the earth in the pot is dry and cracked, but only a few leaves are withered, most of it is still nice and green.
My mother is there, too, to help me move the washing-machine, and I feel resentful towards her, but I don't remember why.
5. In the last dream, I wake up and feel there is some crumbly material in my mouth. I worry that my teeth are broken, but they are okay. The material is some kind of black plastic. I panic slightly because I realise someone has put a sleep-inducing drug into my mouth to put me into a really deep sleep. The plastic is the remains of the bag that the drug was in.
I think the first and the third dream suggest that you don't feel too comfortable showing how you feel. Perhaps you don't like to admit, even to yourself, that you have emotional needs. You say you've been focusing on your spiritual development but neglected your emotions - I think there are some spiritual traditions, Buddhism for example, that may foster misunderstandings about this area because they stress the importance of non-attachment. I don't believe this concept means you aren't allowed to have any desires or needs anymore. I think it only means that you can achieve a state of joy that comes from within rather than without. So it's better to admit that you do have emotional needs - we all do.
The fourth and the fifth dream indicate that you are worried about your emotional health because you neglected it for so long, but you don't have to be too worried. Your emotional health is better than you think now, it only needs some nurturing. You mentioned an inner child meditation - I wonder if there are also emotional issues you need to look at that stem from the time when you were a young adult. Perhaps there were some conflicts with your mother about becoming independent?
In the fifth dream, the drug that made you unconscious was given to you by someone else. So I think you should ask yourself why you repressed your emotions for such a long time. Probably you wanted to protect not only yourself, but also the people who hurt you - it must have seemed less painful to you to forget about your hurts than to confront those people. Maybe now is the time to do so.
I think the second dream might mean that any training programme involving pedagogics and/or psychology might help you. If you learn how to help others access their emotional needs, you will have an easier time connecting with your own.
I hope there was something in those dreams that helps you, Daniel ! Please let me know what you think.