Hi Moongold.
I believe I have a spirit guide and I call him Max. I totally understand your question, as it is very difficult to differentiate between a guide, an angel, your subconcious (Higher sElf), or even your concious. For the purpose of this post, I'm going to collectively coin all forms of the above mentioned as guides.
I became aware of Max through a series of coincidences (if you choose to believe that coincidences exist). It started with reading a book about spirit guides and angels. I had just finished reading a section where it explained that guides are all around us, and that some folk are oblivious to them. So, they do things to try to get our attention, and it listed about ten of these. One of which was a slow dimming of lights (like a sudden decrease in wattage before a return to normal light). I thought, ah, I wonder if anybody is trying to contact me.....and within an instant, the bedside light dimmed for a moment.
On its own, that wouldn't seem very exciting, but as I read more and more of the book, things starting manifesting. I had a vision of what this guide looked like - we met under a pier.
Then I went to school fair and was fossicking through the second-hand book stall and found a book on channeling for 20 cents. Bargain!!! I thought, wow, I might be able to channel Max. As I was walking out of the book stall, my eye was immediately drawn to a photographer's stand. And there before me was a large glossy photo of the underneath of a pier....it was exactly like in my vision. So I bought a copy.
And his name, well, the book had said that you will receive many signs that will show his name. The next day I came across six Max's. I don't really know if that is his name, but that is the name that I know him by.
The light dimming and electrical clicks happen to me quite frequently. Like I'll be putting makeup on in my bedroom just before leaving for work and I'll hear the electric blanket click to remind me that I haven't turned it off yet.
It's so cool when I'm in the middle of explaining to a friend the light dimming phenomenon and the light dims to prove my theory.
I can definitely feel his presence. I have never heard an external voice, though I do hear him inside my head. Having a conversation with him is different to when I am just thinking. I have seen visions of him in my shiny purple paper too.
Once I challenged him to reveal himself in a physical form. A very dear friend (whose teenage nickname was Max and I only discovered this the day I met my six Max's) had given me a leather friendshp bracelet that used to go twice round my wrist. At night I would take it off and place it on my dresser, and it would lay in a curled ring, as though it were still on my wrist. One morning, I lay in bed and set Max the challenge to appear at the end of my bed. Then I got up and stripped the bed so that I could wash the linen. I remade the bed with fresh sheets, then went for a shower.
When I returned to the bedroom, I found my leather bracelet stretched out (not curled) on the end of the bed. I was the only one home and I have no pets. There was no physical explanation as to how the bracelet was now on the end of my bed. I could not have dropped it there the night before, because I'd just changed my sheets.
He's even helped with doing things around the house....like priming a pump when my water wasn't pumping. By that I mean, I stand there saying....I don't know what to do....and then this idea pops into my head and I do it and it works. Believe me, I am by no means mechanically minded but I got that pump going.
When it is all said and done, this whole thing could be a total load of hogwash. None of what I have said is conclusive that he actually exists. So it boils down to faith.
I feel that Max is there to guide me on my spiritual journey and I feel somehow protected. Even if it is only my subconscious I feel better by this special guidance.
Hmmm, it's all very interesting.
Cheers
purple_scorp
