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Hi Tanga!
Thank you for your response.
I believe this, too, that we're never sent anything we're not able to deal with, whether as a practitioner working with a client or as a 'client' dealing with a serious issue. In the moment, for me, it always felt like it was 'too much', but, looking back, I saw that there was help and support, even in that sense of desperation...a quiet and persistent help had enveloped my space and atmosphere. This aid was always around even if I couldn't fully see or feel it at the time.I was raised Roman Catholic, as well....Couldn't relate to the Mary and Jesus they spoke about. And, I certainly didn't 'fit in'. But, that upbringing helped shape me...It lead to all of THIS...Well, all of this was a part of me, to begin with, but my childhood experiences, magnified that longing in me to want to understand the Mysteries.
Oh - THAT.
Mine then, would be in my early teens on a school camping trip.
Walking back to camp along a hill one evening - I saw the full moon - a giant moon turned orange and seemingly floating down along the line of hills beside us companionably.
I was fascinated and filled with a strange 'Starriness' and yearning. I spent the night contemplating this - whilst everyone else was busy getting smashed on their secret stashes of alcohol.
This was the birth of my pagan practice - after many years a Roman Catholic that didn't quite 'fit in' (or 'believe') - and keeping my thoughts about this all to myself. I attended a school run by Irish nuns.
Your experience walking back to camp, and seeing the Moon and being filled with 'starriness' and 'yearning' (how beautiful!), triggered the memory of this dream I had back in November 2013, around the same time when I held the Star card in my hands. You'll appreciate this and I know ravenest will, too.
I was outside in the backyard of my childhood home, where my parents still live. Anyway, it's a cool and grey evening...about 8:30pm on a summer night...or it could be early morning. I see the Moon in the sky, the brightest I've ever seen it, and I realize, for a moment, I'm staring at its centre, or that I am the "centre"?? and suddenly, the Moon and the sky begin to shift and move to the right. At first, it seemed like the Moon was moving but then, I saw it was the earth. Things started to spin and I find myself trying really hard to follow the Moon with my eye so that I remain in the middle of it. And that's when a cluster of stars come down, in a strip, a wide band...swirling all around, in unison. There were big stars, little stars, all different sizes. They were a couple of inches away from me and I thought to move towards them, through them, to see what would happen, which I did. I stood still and let them do whatever
. They were swirling in and out of me...It felt like they were meeting me half way. They had come "down" (what a gift!) but in order for me to "benefit" from their presence, I had to move towards them. One of the best healing dreams, ever! Thanks for listening!
