I'm sorry not to get back to this sooner. It is really heart-warming to get this much moral support.
I should have made clear that the help G refuses isn't *any* help, it was a misleading title for the thread, just that I asked him before reading the cards about him and he said no - we didn't get as far as why, but his tiny experience of healing (sampled shiatsu and cranio a few years ago) put him off. I suspect it made him 'feel something' which scared him - he's certainly sensitive to such like.
As for help, he really is desperate and does know it - not objecting to 'interference', just isn't someone whose natural language is verbal...
I've decided that I am all right asking what I can / should do, if there's anything I really need to know, that sort of thing, and including him when I make a position for each person that will affect the coming week, which is the way I often work. I will not sit down and ask 'What is best for G?' etc. Having these responses has helped me clarify on that, thanx
Two positive things happened the day before yesterday. G hit rock bottom emotionally - that's not the positive thing, it was scary - couldn't eat or get dressed and took some coaxing to bother lifting a coffee to his lips... Sitting down just to 'be with' ended up as an hour of grief counselling (it's not bereavement, but severe depression feels just like that (and yes, I can say that, I've tasted both)) - at one point he simply cried, and let me hold him, very cheesy-movie moment, and a HUGE relief because he hasn't been able to cry. Then in the afternoon about 4pm he came downstairs for a snack, good in itself, and I happened to be at the kitchen table luckily; he started telling me things that happen in his mind that worry him and that turned into another hour-long counselling session.
He could not see how anything was better but *I* knew he'd moved slightly past the Ten of Swords stage, for this time I mean.
The other good thing is that I got on the phone and after being bounced from wrong department to wrong department, found out that 1 to 3 years is a myth, it's more like 1 to 3 months' waiting list. Infuriating to have that frightening rumour, and baffling since it came from a psych consultant (the one that has referred to him to the 'next stage up'). WHAT a relief though.
I will follow up ilweran's suggestion about Mind etc.
And I'm physically exhausted, but have got over the emotional exhaustion of those long talks. I am so glad that I have listening training, and am a depression survivor myself (no longer identify as a depressive!), what a help both those things are now.
All sorts of other practical and physical-health and personal and even computer-glitchy things are going on in my life (all time-consuming) and my health doesn't allow that kind of mental exertion every day! But G has stayed with friends since yesterday so I've caught up a bit.
Thank you so much.
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