cayacia
So...I've been feeling not so hot for a few months now and not really knowing what it is. Partially it has to do with the many dissapointments life has been throwing at me lately, but I know what the cause of it is now and I am wondering if anyone else has had to experience this and if they have they would like to share.
I am finnally getting my wish, my spirit guides are trying to contact me now. I was informed of this as of yesterday by the ever mentioned Joshua, my teacher/friend. He realized what was happening to me not to long ago (i think like the day before) why I had been acting so erratic and why I have been so depressed. I get depressed for absolutely no reason-nothing will set me off-and start crying sometimes. It's disturbing when you don't know why you're upset.
He has explained to be before that this is what happened to him when his guides started to contact him. I'm feeling it pysically, he says, because they're booring through that other realm into my brain As excited I am that this is finnally happening to me, I'm really scared. Josh has been trying to reassure me that everything will be fine, but he has also said that it could take a few years to complete. I'm not sure if I can hold out through all this hell-and I can't go back.
Josh can't give me any answers, either, because I have to do this on my own. They won't let him give me any answers...he tried to identify the sexes of them and he couldn't tell them apart. I have to do it all on my own or I'll end up doing it again in the next life.
So...based upon what I've been going through up until this point, seeing that I woke up at 5 AM and couldn't get back to sleep because I was crying with frustration and downright unhappines, I'm a bit weary of what is to come. On a light note, I gave to people readings today at school and they both went VERY well. At least one good thing has come out of this so far.
Can anyone relate? I'm not joking, I really am scared even though I know I shouldn't be. I'm sure it's not helping the process either. *wimper*
With much love and light,
I am finnally getting my wish, my spirit guides are trying to contact me now. I was informed of this as of yesterday by the ever mentioned Joshua, my teacher/friend. He realized what was happening to me not to long ago (i think like the day before) why I had been acting so erratic and why I have been so depressed. I get depressed for absolutely no reason-nothing will set me off-and start crying sometimes. It's disturbing when you don't know why you're upset.
He has explained to be before that this is what happened to him when his guides started to contact him. I'm feeling it pysically, he says, because they're booring through that other realm into my brain As excited I am that this is finnally happening to me, I'm really scared. Josh has been trying to reassure me that everything will be fine, but he has also said that it could take a few years to complete. I'm not sure if I can hold out through all this hell-and I can't go back.
Josh can't give me any answers, either, because I have to do this on my own. They won't let him give me any answers...he tried to identify the sexes of them and he couldn't tell them apart. I have to do it all on my own or I'll end up doing it again in the next life.
So...based upon what I've been going through up until this point, seeing that I woke up at 5 AM and couldn't get back to sleep because I was crying with frustration and downright unhappines, I'm a bit weary of what is to come. On a light note, I gave to people readings today at school and they both went VERY well. At least one good thing has come out of this so far.
Can anyone relate? I'm not joking, I really am scared even though I know I shouldn't be. I'm sure it's not helping the process either. *wimper*
With much love and light,