Any One want to Help me with Auras ?

[kaleanna]

I know you have a bit of a list but If you have room for one more, would love one please.

 

[FenestraThought]

Are you still taking people, Fenestra? You do some lovely work here - I myself am trying to hone my abilities, and hopefully reach your level of detail one day!

Bright Blessings,
Ashton

~*Thank You*~ I will gladly add you to the list. Thank you for allowing me to read you ~! We can grow together

 

[FenestraThought]

I know you have a bit of a list but If you have room for one more, would love one please.

I will gladly add you to the list. Thank you for allowing me to read you ~! Hope you don't mind the wait

 

[kaleanna]

I will gladly add you to the list. Thank you for allowing me to read you ~! Hope you don't mind the wait

Thank you so much Fenestra. I look forward to it, and of course I do not mind the wait.

 

[bright_star]

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First off, let me say that I am Very sorry that this took so long. But I didn't want to "wing" a reading.

That’s ok I didn’t mind waiting don't worry about it .

Foundations: Here I saw orange and yellow and the colors settled down into sticks that turned more into planks of wood that you were laying down in a bridge/walkway kind of fashion. The walk way wasn't over a bridge but over freshly tilled earth, and I looked closer at this and there were little green shoots coming out of the ground. you were moving backwards as you laid the planks and I had a feeling like this walkway was for some future purpose as well.

How interesting that you saw orange and yellow, I had a feeling you would. I keep seeing sunflowers everywhere lately, I don’t know if it’s supposed to be a ‘sign’ but it’s very strange. Like in shop windows, on tv, in movies, on signs etc…sunflowers keep popping up. I've been wondering what they mean, whether it's a signal to be more optimistic or what.

I would say that you are in the early stages of a new aspect of your life. you have tilled the soil and planted the seeds and the first aspects of new life are starting to show: You've gone to the drawing board so-to-speak and addressed the "Self", new ideas starting to take shape into concepts, beliefs that are becoming inspiring, perspectives that are coming into focus (these are just examples of foundation ideas and what I am talking about)

Yes, I am in a new aspect of my life. I am a 2nd year nursing student and I’m learning a lot of new things very rapidly. Lots of new concepts and it is influencing my beliefs and perspectives and helping me to feel more confident and to have a stronger sense of self. Before I started this degree I was studying something else but not really trying or enjoying it, and I didn’t know what I wanted to do or be so I spent a good while drifting and not really knowing what the point of it all was. My degree finishes at the end of next year, so already I feel like I’m in the early stages of planning the transition from student into a career. I’m starting to feel like all that I’ve learnt in the past year and a bit are starting to make sense and I’m beginning to apply my knowledge and my skills are gradually snow-balling. More inwardly too I’ve spent some time working on my self and my tendency to be very negative and self-critical. I spent a lot of years depressed and feeling like I didn’t belong. Studying nursing has helped me with that, but I’ve also worked on it myself through introspection and revising my own way of thinking and my beliefs and attitudes. I have a clearer sense of purpose now, not just in my career but within myself. I’ve been trying to work on my tendency to worry and my need to overanalyse everything and be in control. I’m not so good at going with the flow and I tend to worry when I don’t have to or see problems where there aren’t any. I’m slowly trying to change that about myself. There are other things I can think of if my life that will bring changes at some point but are still in a developing stage, requiring me to change and grow and situations and other people to change and mature.

But more then that I see that you are protecting these new concepts. Its like you still need to be able to get about your every day life and focus on issues that already exist, travel in the world that you live it, but you don't want to walk on or destroy these concepts. Maybe you are hiding them? not in an ashamed kind of way, just in a way to better protect them. You are Still focused on the building a foundation for your future. You are committed to the idea of being productive and practical for whatever life will bring you even if you don't necessarily see it. But you don't want to loose what you are starting so you want to mesh the two, building them over each other so you can have both. Some times we need to do things that we know are practical and necessary, like keep jobs, or go to school, or exorcise, or maintain family ties but we also want to express our selves and explore new ideas and some times people choose or sacrifice one over the other....You seem to have figured out how to try to have both. You just don't want every one to know about it lol ?

I do tend to protect those things which are newly developing or which aren’t quite ready yet, either within myself or more externally. I’m a very quiet introverted person so I tend to keep things to myself. I am a practical person but at the same time there are things that I keep within me. I think there are certain aspects of my life which are hidden to a certain extent and on the back burner whilst I focus on practical matters. Generally I think I am pretty good at meshing different aspects of my life, or different parts of myself.

Emotions: I found my self on a very nice Victorian rap around porch. And you were on the porch waiting for me? maybe watching people ? for what ever reason you were there already and waved me over and offered me some lemonade and you wanted me to sit down and chat. This was ok, but I kind reminded you I was here to come inside and you are like "Ok, but lets play this game of checkers? first ?" So I kinda looked in your front window to look inside and I saw this shadow figure with a white glow around them wave at me? [do you have ghosts in your house ? or a spirit that you are aware of that stays there? (or around you that follows you, some one you know that is of the "spirit guide" a nature that once was a relative or was ancestral)this did not come off as a living person an it felt like a male?]

Not sure if I have a spirit guide. When I use the tarot or I ching, or even just meditating, sometimes I address a spirit guide without really thinking and I do feel like I have one and that they’re male. Not sure why really, maybe I just like the idea of it. I have no idea if there are ghosts in my house. I think I believe in spirits although I have kind of an atheist/agnostic perspective in terms of a belief in god and ‘creation’, but I do think maybe there is something more to life and a realm that isn’t understood. Not sure exactly who it would be if it was a relative. I have often thought it might be my mother’s father, who died when she was 3 at the age of about 27. Obviously I never knew him so I guess it’s weird for me to think it might be him, yet that assumption feels right, oddly. My other grandfather is also dead but I never really knew him either.

So I said I would really like to come inside and I reached down and you didn't have a door "Knob" but one of those straight handles that you push down to open? don't know why this matters but I happened to look down and notice that. Well I couldn't really see into your living room and honestly it was set up so there was a hall way straight through the house and the back yard was sunny and bright and the back door was open, I felt compelled to just walk down the hallway and there was a kitchen at the end of hallway on the right. It was a nice kitchen simple red tile brick. Not really fancy for entertaining, but very "period". meant for its purpose and not really "high end guest" showy, more like servants quarters kind of?

Not sure either what my straight lever handles could signify. Maybe just that I’m different? I like ‘period’ things, old movies, old clothes and houses etc. I’m not a showy person, generally pretty unassuming and I like things to be simple and plain but interesting and unique, and I like to look that way myself.

You seem like a nice of enough person. You seemed friendly and open to me when I came by. But I do get the feeling like you have something to hide? You have a way about you of being nice and accommodation and inviting but with out letting people get to know "all of you" ?

Yeah I am like this. I am kind and friendly but I don’t let people get too close. I would more or less say there is no one that knows all of me. I do think I hold parts of myself away from other people and I feel things a lot deeper and have thoughts and insecurities that others know nothing of.

I got the feeling as I was walking down the hallway that you are from a very traditional family? or an "Old" family ? You have no problem entertaining people, but you don't like them "in your house" And If people insist, then you usher them through and only let them access a very small portion of you? ugh, this is hard to explain. The metaphor is hard to translate to actual emotions. There is a large part of "who you are" that people in your every day life don't get to see or know about? If they do want to know about you then you kinda move them through quickly and towards your other friends or "adopted family", people that you find comfort with outside your home".

Again yes that is how I am and I think I get what you’re referring to. I am basically a gentle kind person but I can be rather cold when it comes to letting others in. I’m not very good at opening up to others and others don’t really see a lot of who I really am, deep down. I like my space and I feel rather uncomfortable with people getting too close. I can be a bit selective of what I choose to show others. I’m an introvert and I like spending time alone, I’m inclined not to tell people things about myself unless I really want them to know. Even then I’m still selective. Not sure about coming from a traditional family. I’m still living at home with my parents until I graduate. I suppose yes, basically they have traditional family values. Both my parents are pretty reserved, my dad is very Australian which is hard to describe to a non-Australian but it’s to do with his manner and way of speaking, it’s distinctively Aussie and of his baby-boomer generation. Both my parents come from a generation where you get married and the father goes out to work while the mum stays home to look after the kids, and my mum and dad both hold those values, although my mum works now.

You would rather not deal with your emotions?.... but you don't come off as depressed, your front porch is bright and you are wearing white the house is white and the back yard seems sunny and inviting. Seems like you have nice friends and you seem like a giving person, either in public or with your friends. ugh... just try to keep people distracted from getting to know you too intimately and when ever it is brought up you change the subject, very artfully I would add. . . something about you or your family that you are hiding or don't want every one to know about. ? I didn't pry, that would be rude.

I guess there are things about me, aspects of my personality and my deepest feelings that I don’t really show anyone. In a way yes I hide myself from others. I’m not exactly a sociable person, I only have a few friends and I’m introverted, but I like it that way. I’m inclined to be a hermit if left to my own devices, but I do get out with others if I have to. I introspect a lot and analyse things more than anyone really knows. I don’t really let many people in and I take years of knowing someone before I consider them a friend.

But I did get the feeling I was being "Handed" but just in a very nice kind of way. I would like to add that the "white" was a very "washed out" kind White. LIke what the sun does to color, it bleaches it over time. It seems like emotionally you are not unhappy but not overly happy. You're very nice and cheery with me and others in public but left alone you are .... I don't know. but I will say you like to "do" for others you're the kinda friend that would make some one soup or tea or help cook because you enjoy being able to "do" that for them.

Yeah I’ve been feeling a bit blah lately and a bit lonely at times, but I’m not unhappy with things. What I present to others isn’t always what I feel inside. I do like doing things for others, that’s why I want to be a nurse. I’m more inclined to do things for others rather than say how I feel out loud and I like feeling needed and being able to help.

Your Mind:
Right Brain. There was a paint brush that was standing on its tip suspended in mid air. seemed like the scene was dark, like a room with the light turned off
Left Brain: There was a lot of white paper and square stones or sketches that seemed to go off into the future/idea realm.

I would say that you have not had a lot of time for you creative self lately. Seems like you may have some unfinished projects in whatever field your creative outlet is in. and Things were put down or stopped. Maybe you got to busy with other things that needed your attention or energy? Not that you weren't creative, or that you can't pick it up again because it has been discarded. No, actually everything was left "as-it", but left unattended.

I used to paint and draw. I used to want to be an artist and when I left school I was intending to go to art school. Initially I started photography, but studying at that time wasn’t really good for me. And being an artist, as a career, never really felt right. The last time I did any art was a couple of years ago when I signed up to some art classes, but I dropped them because I didn’t have time and kind of lost interest. I had some paintings I was doing but they’re unfinished. I also recently had to quit the choir that I’m in because I don’t have time for it. I used to have singing lessons and was at one point intending to get into a conservatorium of music…I wanted to be an opera singer. I think I got a bit disillusioned with that, plus pursuing it as a career never really felt right, I prefer it as something just for me. I can take choir or lessons up again but yeah I can’t really at the moment because of my studies. It’s the same deal with art. I haven’t really thought about that side of me for a while but I guess it is still there.

Logically. The thinking aspect of the mind seems to be getting a lot more attention. I think you have been working towards your future. either dreaming about it and writing it down like a journal or something or you have been writing out, planning your future. or just doing something that deals with writing or working on the tentative building blocks of your future. seems like you have been thinking of different ideas and nothing is "set-in-stone" as all these building blocks are on crumpled paper as if to say you have been thinking up ideas and discarding them and thinking up more, but all in "progress" train. . like each one gets you that much closer

Yeah, I think a lot. To the point where I overthink everything. I do write things down and plan a lot, although not in a journal as such but yeah, I write down tarot/I ching readings, and my thoughts on them. And I think a lot about the future. Sometimes I do tend to have thoughts which I discard and then think of more, sometimes this is helpful othertimes not. Sometimes I ask too many questions (of divination and just of myself) to the point that I overanalyse. But I do think it is all helpful from a greater perspective.

Spiritual Self:

Not sure if I trust these images but they popped up so I'll include them. I saw a butterfly and an owl that turned its head towards me.

Both these images have turned up in dreams before. And I love butterflies, they often seem to be a sign to me when they show up.

Then I saw a hand print in mud. and there was a garden around you, plants and such. a nice calm zone. But its like this calm zone was an island of sunshine in a very chaotic world. I saw you on a rocky beach high on a hill (like the tall drop off cliffs next to the sea in Ireland) with thunder and lightning and heavy rain all around. You kinda had your hand on the ground and your head your bowed in a meditative way . . .

I think you are "holding your own" in a sense spiritually. There seems to be a lot of chaos around you and the elements seem to be testing you. YOu have been getting in touch with the "Divine" in the "grounding" kind of way. Reaching down and getting in touch with your "foundation". I don't know if you are JUST focused on keeping peace around you and maintaining your island or if it is a product of circumstances. Either you are not looking your "sight" is being blocked by the storms around you. I would say "Fate" wise you are in that "Chaos of change" so the horizon is not clear right now, you don't know what you will find then the storm is over, so for now you are keeping your own peace.

Yes this is how I’ve been feeling lately and I think I know what the issue is where my sight is blocked by storms around me, although I won’t go into what that is here. I have been trying to stay calm and ground myself, to not panic or run away or give up like I’m tempted to.

Your surroundings. Well this seems to all go with what I was seeing in other areas. You have a lot of deep dark colors around you. people, structures, family, ideologies and such that are keeping you "hemmed in" bound. I get the feeling of very stubborn people in your life, keeping you where you are or for doing what you want. Strong willed people that are backed by tradition and "old ways". I see these lighter colors that escape up through the top of your aura, you have dreams and they are bright and maybe you have people to share them with, but right now the world doesn't seem very supportive of your dreams. You also have desire to leave where you are now. that is where you mind is and your aura says you would rather be living your dreams or being more aggressive towards its...you just have a lot of "stuff" going on around you right now. . .

Yes this is how I feel. There is something that I would rather be more aggressive with, again I won’t go into what that is but I’m tempted to get impatient with it and give up, yet I can’t because I know I shouldn’t. But yes it is making me feel somewhat hemmed in. Outside of this one issue that I feel this is speaking about here, I also feel a bit hemmed in just by life in general. I would like to move out but it’s not possible right now. I feel a bit impatient with that as well.

I hope this make sense or you understand it. I will get better at staying in these "scenes" longer and looking around more. But that Is what I get so far.

I think your reading makes a lot of sense, thank you for taking the time to read for me.

 

[LibraX]

Hello Fenestra! If you have room for any more, I'd love to be a sitter. If not, I totally understand, don't overwork yourself!

- Amy

 

[priscilla]

count me in, if you please, FenestraThought. thank you