I have come to believe it is a matter of frequency...for lack of a better word.
I think each deck has a frequency and why we connect or don't connect to a certain deck is because our own consciousness level hasn't reached ...(or in some cases) has past that level of frequency.
Sometimes a deck will have such a wonky frequency you never connect with it.
Life experience.
Using and handling your cards a lot.
Reading books on tarot and other things.
Practicing reading for others.
Learning about another divination system like runes, lenormand, oracle cards.
All these things add to you frequency.
That's why you see people say, I put that deck away for awhile and felt lead to take it out years later and now I can read it.
A decks color, has a lot to do with it's frequency..the energy of the person who created it, the intention for which it was created.
All play into it.
There can be a lot of baggage that comes with a deck...a lot of history.
And you just might not connect with that or it will feel off.
Decks are a luxury purchase for most of us and we like to think when we plunk that coin down we made the right choice...that it might be "the one."
I know I always feel a huge disappointment when a deck doesn't seem to match my frequency when I had high hopes it would.
Sometimes I know it never will and sometimes I put it away and try later.
Over time I've gotten pretty good at knowing what will connect and what won't.
I feel left out many times of the LANDLABI posts.
(Look A New Deck Lets All Buy IT)
But when I do connect with a new deck I post my little heart out.
Thing is I don't think you can force it.
My advice is go back to your old deck and also go shopping for a new one that matches your frequency right now.
So wish there was a tarot lending library...I so believe that handling a deck and seeing it with your own eyes is the best way to feel if you connect.
I think I read a post about you buying this deck??
You went intending to buy a deck and the ones you though you might connect with didn't seem to do it for you and so you bought this one, kind of a spur of the moment decision.
Whenever I do that I end up disappointed because I didn't really want that deck I just was determined to buy A deck that day.
But maybe that wasn't the case with you.
Buying decks can be a real crap shoot...even with a lot of research you can still not connect.