Please read while facing...east.
I drink coffee with cardamom every single day and have for years! So, maybe the spice will help me here...
Knowledge within, and not being allowed out until ready...
Perhaps this means that you just can't take the bigger deeper concepts out and bandy them about like some kind of waiting room chit chat.
Nobody gets on the elevator and says "The path to the great wisdoms of life may involve Tarot cards. Are you ready?"
It would seem to me that part of what is being discussed in your early posts is that some knowledge/wisdoms need to be experienced, earned, sweated over, bled over and here I mean the menstrual cycle. Because as a woman, the cycle of life is about completion. It isn't the blinding rut, but the desire, the flow of juices, the search for a partner, the feeling, the foreplay, the act, the afterglow, and then the pregancy another cycle, the birth, another cycle....parenting, the rut again, and so on.
And if you choose not to bring another life along the continuum then you are in another cycle...
Priestess won't let you out until you die seems to me. And then you are like an addict. You need more. So the next lifetime you do some different version, but the truth is, once you enter that temple you may never leave until you reach enlightenment, whatever the hell that is.
And I'm beginning to think that enlightenment sounds something like an AA prayer.
"I admit that I am powerless before the enormity of the Universe.
I am a flea upon the back of Anubis.
I am the spittle that leaves the lips of Christ. As such I am Divine.
And once I realize that my divinity is dependent upon the Christ hocking a loogy I am humbled and quieted. Forever more. Amen."