vipera
so i did a reading to figure out whats going on between me and this guy:
so at the beginning he was interested in me .. really heavy flirting and we were connecting, then less and less and then he's gone cold. then friendly.. the cold.. and there were a few events that could've been the spring board for us but other things came up. opportunities where we could connect further hasn't been taken because of the people around us. but even with that are brief moments where you know theres a 'zing' between the two of us...
i don't know wtf is going on. every spread and reading says that there is potential for us in the future.. and that he does see me in a cups sort of way, 6 of cups doesn't come up for how he thinks of me which i take as good because to me thats the card of platonic friendship.
but i'm so so so frustrated because every time i try to do a reading or use any spread that may be relevant to figure out what the hell is going on the cards won't be clear.
so i don't know whether i did something or if theres something about me that turned him off, if it's work or friendship, another girl? if this is just how its got to be for a while before it gets better down the line or if its just how things are, and this is the end and its for the best and i should continue on with my life.
it's like theres a huge fog over this
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so stone_lotus recommended the hard truth spread and i did it and it's... interesting but i just don't know how to put it together. for each position i drew two cards simply because i'm at that stage where i'm like 'you better be bloody clear cause i'm just at the end of my tether.. this will be clear!'
so for:
1. What you want to see/believe = 9 of swords/king of wands
i guess that can be me hoping that this will lead to something down the line. like whats happening now is just a blip in time, and a rough patch but something will happen... or maybe the 9 of swords is me hoping that he's as bothered about this as i am but i doubtful of that.
2. What you don't want to see/believe = 10 of wands/the emperor
i don't know how to take this as.. work? or he's just not game or romance or getting to know me?
3. What is true = the magician/ace of swords
.. i don't get whats going on with that ace of swords cause we're currently not talking but maybe he's doing something at work? magician is skills
4. What you want to happen = 3 of swords/9 of pentacles
yes i would like the success between us like the 9 of pentacles but 3 of swords? i do not want that!
5. What you don't want to happen = page of wands/3 of cups
i'm taking this as just friendship.. i think if we just end staying friends it's be such a waste of potential
6. What will happen = 2 of pentacles/8 of pentacles/4 of wands
i'm guessing it will just be friendship? disappointing but still harsh truths and all
advice card = ace of cups/the tower/the sun
see i don't know how to take that advice!
with the ace of cups = i've tried contacting him but in the end it became so much of me contacting him first that i felt like i wasn't being true to myself and like i was just cheapening myself to him. making myself too too toooooo available. everyone like reciprocation and i just hated ace of cup-ing all the time.. so i can't think of any other interpretation of that card as advice..
then the tower then sun? like the advice is to move on? or that it'll get better?
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i don't now... i think i broke it down relatively well with it as individual parts but i'm having some trouble putting it all together into a cohesive picture..
any help will be appreciated and second opinions (i guess i still wanna hold on to that hope till i really have to just let go)
thank you for taking the time to read and reply!
so at the beginning he was interested in me .. really heavy flirting and we were connecting, then less and less and then he's gone cold. then friendly.. the cold.. and there were a few events that could've been the spring board for us but other things came up. opportunities where we could connect further hasn't been taken because of the people around us. but even with that are brief moments where you know theres a 'zing' between the two of us...
i don't know wtf is going on. every spread and reading says that there is potential for us in the future.. and that he does see me in a cups sort of way, 6 of cups doesn't come up for how he thinks of me which i take as good because to me thats the card of platonic friendship.
but i'm so so so frustrated because every time i try to do a reading or use any spread that may be relevant to figure out what the hell is going on the cards won't be clear.
so i don't know whether i did something or if theres something about me that turned him off, if it's work or friendship, another girl? if this is just how its got to be for a while before it gets better down the line or if its just how things are, and this is the end and its for the best and i should continue on with my life.
it's like theres a huge fog over this
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so stone_lotus recommended the hard truth spread and i did it and it's... interesting but i just don't know how to put it together. for each position i drew two cards simply because i'm at that stage where i'm like 'you better be bloody clear cause i'm just at the end of my tether.. this will be clear!'
so for:
1. What you want to see/believe = 9 of swords/king of wands
i guess that can be me hoping that this will lead to something down the line. like whats happening now is just a blip in time, and a rough patch but something will happen... or maybe the 9 of swords is me hoping that he's as bothered about this as i am but i doubtful of that.
2. What you don't want to see/believe = 10 of wands/the emperor
i don't know how to take this as.. work? or he's just not game or romance or getting to know me?
3. What is true = the magician/ace of swords
.. i don't get whats going on with that ace of swords cause we're currently not talking but maybe he's doing something at work? magician is skills
4. What you want to happen = 3 of swords/9 of pentacles
yes i would like the success between us like the 9 of pentacles but 3 of swords? i do not want that!
5. What you don't want to happen = page of wands/3 of cups
i'm taking this as just friendship.. i think if we just end staying friends it's be such a waste of potential
6. What will happen = 2 of pentacles/8 of pentacles/4 of wands
i'm guessing it will just be friendship? disappointing but still harsh truths and all
advice card = ace of cups/the tower/the sun
see i don't know how to take that advice!
with the ace of cups = i've tried contacting him but in the end it became so much of me contacting him first that i felt like i wasn't being true to myself and like i was just cheapening myself to him. making myself too too toooooo available. everyone like reciprocation and i just hated ace of cup-ing all the time.. so i can't think of any other interpretation of that card as advice..
then the tower then sun? like the advice is to move on? or that it'll get better?
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i don't now... i think i broke it down relatively well with it as individual parts but i'm having some trouble putting it all together into a cohesive picture..
any help will be appreciated and second opinions (i guess i still wanna hold on to that hope till i really have to just let go)
thank you for taking the time to read and reply!