crossroads divination (literal crossroads), anyone familiar?

[Flames]

I intended to read for myself but Flames and I have been having weird synchronicity stuff happening so last night I decided that I would go to the crossroads for her. I'm sure she will come along with feedback.

Here I am. Thank you for doing this. I am humbled. What a surprise it was for me to get your message this morning. This was all so unexpected.

I had to drive my oldest to a practice this morning at his university. I told him before we left the house that I couldn't talk to him or even say goodbye when we got to the school, so I said bye and I love you before I opened the door to go to the car. I'm weird enough that this didn't seem unusual to him. lol

I had a specific crossroads in mind and it looked like I would have plenty of time to drop my son off and get to the intersection...but then all of the sudden, it was like everything was against me. Slow cars, bad traffic, etc. I only had 2 minutes until 8 am when I decided to just pull into a parking lot that is near a "crossroad". This was on 10th street. I don't know if the number 10 is significant to you, Flames but it seemed important since I was basically forced to stop there due to time. **or maybe the 10th card Wheel of Fortune...which could easily signify a "turning point" or I guess even being at a crossroad...lol**

Yes..the number 10 is significant because of the Wheel of Fortune card. I know this card like the back of my hand. I know what it represents for me...exactly how you describe it here. "Turning point" sounds accurate. I feel like I've been at a crossroads for a good chunk of time...

It turns out that this was the perfect spot because I could stay in my car with the windows rolled down and be right next to the crossroad. It's a busy intersection. There is a school near by, a lot of office buildings, a bus stop and a pharmacy. I was also close enough to the sidewalk that I could hear everyone's conversations as they waited for the light to change to be able to cross the street.

I had an image of my old neighborhood, where I grew up, when I read the first part...It was very nostalgic.

At 8 am exactly, with key in hand, I saw a disheveled young man walked by muttering to himself, "I'm ok. It's ok. I'm ok. It's ok." From the look on his face, you could gather that he wasn't doing a very good job of convincing himself of that. I think you are feeling lost, Flames. I think are trying very hard to put on a smile and tell yourself everything is ok but the truth really is written all over your face. Anyone would knows you would be able to see the truth.

I say this to myself!! "I'm ok. It's ok. I'm ok." Oh my. I waver between telling myself that I'm alright and acknowledging that I don't feel alright. I fight with myself. I'm always confronted with the thought that I "should" be grateful for my blessings in light of where I've been.

A woman walks by looking exhausted, clutching a cup of coffee like it's the antidote to some deadly disease. You are worn out, Flames. In fact, it wasn't just this one woman who I saw...every single person looked like an extra from the Walking Dead. Just so drained, lifeless. You need some rest. You need to be rejuvenated.

I feel restless. I've got the energy...I just don't know what the point of it is. I feel stuck. Sometimes, I feel like a caged bird. I want to be free...like that Falcon I encountered last Friday. I'm just not sure how to channel this energy. There needs to be some kind of action or movement involved.

A car wouldn't start...I started hearing the sound of a car that wouldn't start. It would begin to fire up and then die out again. I feel like you aren't sure if you are going to actually be able to bring about change. Like you get motivated, you try and then it quickly dies out again. Over and over. You can change your life. Soon the car did start, and drove away.

Right...and where is the car driving to? I don't have a destination. The only thing I know is that something is missing and I feel like I'm afraid of seeing the truth because the truth would require that I drive away. When I think about the possibility of driving away...I'm laughing...I'm dancing...I'm singing. But, maybe I'm just being foolish, not seeing straight...maybe everything I need is right here..has always been right here...and not somewhere else...except these "feelings" will not go away. They're a constant reminder that something needs to give, something needs to change. I take those initial steps and then I'm forced back...because in so many ways, I don't have the "support" I feel I need at home. I do EVERYTHING. I give it my all in my relationship...but, it's not enough. I feel spent. He needs to do something now. But, he doesn't. He hasn't for the past five years! He's a good guy, smart...I mean, he's good...I'm just sad that I feel like his mother. I want an equal. I want a true partner. Okay...I'm welling up...time to move on to the next part...

Right after the car started, there was a guy on a bicycle. He was flying down the sidewalk. I could see he was looking for a short-cut through the intersection. All the sudden he just took off out into the street, not on any path, and nearly got sideswiped by a van...he cleared the intersection and looked back over his shoulder at the van...he was laughing. Take the crazy, wild, different path, Flames. You will know instinctively what that is when you find it. It will be scary....you might be afraid that you will get hurt (or run over by a white van lol)...but you won't. You will be safe...and free....and laughing in the end.

I'd love to take the crazy path. In my imagination, I am on the crazy path because in my outer life, what I show to others, I'm the opposite...quiet and contained. I don't worry about certain things like I used to, though. Not after what I've endured. And then there are other things...other challenges...I just can't seem to figure out. I don't want to hurt anyone...don't want to let them down...don't want to be the cause of their sadness...so, I "suck it up", like a good Catholic woman...better that I feel down than think I've hurt somebody else.

Two men walk by and have to stop at the intersection for the light...I heard one man say to the other, "She wants a new life that doesn't include me. I told her that I would follow her anywhere. She is all that matters to me. Why not start over together?" Hmmm...I think this is a reminder that you have someone who loves you...don't leave him behind.

And THIS is what I struggle with. He does love me. He knows me better than anyone on this planet. He would never intentionally hurt me. He's my best friend. But...I'm...not....happy. So...I'm hoping that Wheel of Fortune brings some luck my way and transforms these feelings of mine. From where I'm standing right now, I couldn't leave him behind even if Mother Mary herself told me to.

A young man on a cell phone..."I got you. Sweetheart. I got you. It's good. I got you." **see above paragraph** Yeah...someone loves you, supports you and will be there for you 100%.

Yes.

A man stands on the corner, clutching an open umbrella above his head and it's NOT raining....Taking shelter from an imagined threat...preemptively putting on armor for a battle that doesn't exist...shielding yourself from the world when what you really need is openness. Open up. Trust. You aren't going to be hurt. Now is a time to throw away the umbrella, dance with your arms wide open in the rain (or sun)...feel the heartbeat of this planet. It's waiting for you. Walls NEED to come down. Let them fall, the world is truly waiting for you, dear. Feel your place in it. You are an important part of the rhythm of life.

I feel that I'm open...maybe a little guarded now, but I've had to be. I can trust easily, but, if I get an inkling or a whiff from somebody that feels off or insincere...I turn into the Queen of Swords...I just cut them out of my life...AFTER having shared most of myself...not ALL...but, most of myself. I do it with some grace, though. I try not to have any expectations. People can be disappointing and so can I. I'm so sensitive. I "feel" for everybody...no lie. I "feel" what they're feeling. It can be overwhelming. I just want a break from the "guilt" and "shame", from feeling terrible that I "want" something else for myself at this point in my life, even if I can't articulate what this something else is. Returning to my spiritual work, creativity, the Tarot, my dreams...these things are enriching my life...adding more fuel to a fire that's been burning in me for a long while. These little gems are my ticket to freedom...I'm discovering. I was telling a friend the other day how badly I want to run naked in the rain!!

2 men start walking in my direction.....they were striking because where everyone else looked like zombies, these two were the picture of health, all fit (they were maybe 40 btw), glowing skin, awake looking, smiling, animated, no coffee in hand. As they were waiting for the light, I hear one say to the other, "She's doing that detox." The other says, "The.......?" I could tell he named the specific detox plan but a very noisy bus went by and I couldn't hear it. The first guy says "Yeah. She said the first week was brutal. But she likes it now. She looks great and you can tell she feels better too." So, time to detox, Flames. I think this is in all aspects of your life...physically, spiritually, emotionally. What do you need to let go of? What do you need to cleanse from your body, your life, your mind, your heart, your soul? I think I could not hear the specific detox plan name mentioned because YOU are to decide what to do. You are to set your own plan and path, then follow it with bravery.

Ha Ha Ha. I just started a detox! One I've done many times before. I know what a good cleanse can do. I know what a healthy lifestyle can do. It's really a magical experience. The beginning is always the hardest but once you push through it...the rewards are nothing short of miraculous. Well, that's been my experience over the years, anyway.

I did let go of someone I needed to let go of...so, that's good. It was sad but, I knew it had to be done. I'm learning from past mistakes. I'm shedding negative thoughts, adopting a positive attitude. Actually, after my "ordeal", it was easy to see life through a new set of eyes. I am grateful for my blessings. I feel lucky to be alive. I think that's why this "crossroads" feels heavy and so unfair. It wasn't supposed to be a part of the plan. I overcame a dark period, the darkest I've ever experienced. I came through to the other side, finally seeing the light, returning to my core...only to discover that there's still something else needing to be addressed.

The key became hot in my hand and I instinctively dropped it, thus ending the observation. I looked at the clock on my phone...8:10. I only observed for 10 minutes but it felt much longer. I hope this helps a little, Flames...and thank you so much for letting me do this experiment on you. ((hugs))

Wow. You had what's called, "An Expanded Present Moment." Thank you for reading for me, for taking it on, for being so generous. It means the world to me.

 

[EmpressArwen]

Flames,

Go dance naked in the rain. Take your husband along.

I think the restless energy that you feel and the drained faces I saw, might indicate that you need to focus on something...that doing too much will leave you exhausted and definitely not better off than when you began. What is that thing you need to focus on? I don't know. I wish I did but I really believe you will know in time. I had another member here (thanks hon!) explain my situation like this, "You are in the Twilight Zone...the time between then and what is coming"...sounds like you are also in the Twilight Zone...the waiting zone between.

I think the crazy, bicycle guy is a clue that YOUR path isn't going to be a traditional religious path, that being the good "Catholic" is just going to hold you back. You don't have to follow anyone else's rules to love God. Follow your own.

Thanks for your awesome feedback and letting me experiment on you! Good luck, hon. I know you are going to get through the Twilight Zone and speed ahead to greatness.

 

[Dluv]

Oh man, I really want to try this! It's still Friday here for quite a while!
Anyone want to exchange?

 

[GotH]

LittleOne's Reading

"My ex, C, keeps popping back into communication with me. I am told he still has a role to play in my life, but also that I have the free will to just walk away and let him go. I don't know what to do? Turn left, and keep interacting with him. Or turn right, and watch him disappear into the distance?"


Observations

I stuck to the rules with the intention of reading for you on the hour at 10 o'clock, not talking to anyone and holding a key. As I walked to the intersection, I paid attention to some details I felt were setting me up for the understanding of the kind of energy that's between the two of you.

The first thing I noticed was a black bird flying in the opposite direction of where I was headed.

As continued walking, I noticed a car run a stop sign. Seems that someone was in a hurry to move on here.

I continue walking and I notice a woman looking in a realty shop viewing homes for sale while a man stumbles out of the same business looking lost.

I continue to walk and notice some young, jackass guy nearly run over an elderly man as he was crossing the street at a different intersection. I call him a jackass because I felt he was intentionally trying to scare him as he put the skids on his bike as he was nearing him.

As I neared the intersection I planned on observing, I notice a man on a bike nearly get run over by a woman in a sports utility vehicle. He shakes his fist at her and yells a few things. I don't believe she intentionally was trying to tag him but came close.




I finally arrive to my spot as the clock tower strikes 10.

First thing I notice is a pigeon in the street. This little bird too almost gets run over by a car!!!

I then hear an older surfer on the phone making plans with a friend. He sounds very happy and excited to be talking with his buddy. It seems that the convo is very pleasing to him as they are making plans for the friend to come over and work on something in his garage with his tools. The words "I'm in!" come out very loud and clear.

Next a woman attempts to cross the street with 2 loved ones. She sees a car wanting to turn the corner that she's trying to cross and she takes caution to bring attention to the driver of the car that she doesn't want her and her loved ones to be run over.

Next I see a city worker sweeping the street.

Finally I see a mom I recognize from my kids school. She's walking with her son to the corner when I hear the boy who is wearing a backpack say, "Bye bye mom!" He then runs off with an older woman. Grandma maybe? The mom stays there and watches them walk away.



Interpretation

I'll try to explain the bird's symbolism, the energy and direction of what I observed and the symbolism of the people.

The black bird gave me an idea of where things were or were headed for you two. Opposite directions! The pigeon in the street along with the many collisions I observed seems to describe the reckless energy of what's inside of your interaction with each other. And the people seem to symbolize who you are and what is going on between you two.

I can tell you right away that there seems to be a difference in maturity levels between you and C. The jackass seems to show that at times and well, the mother and son at the end of the observation seems to point to that as well. The woman looking at homes seems to show you looking for stability, while the stumbling man shows someone who is lost. Could this be describing you and C and where you two are or were at?

The excited surfer to me indicates to me that there are still friendly vibes between you two but I also get feelings of a desire to have a "friends with benefits" thing going on. The talk of a garage and tools, and when he said "I'm in!" makes me wonder if there is some remaining sexuality that or may not be serious here when it comes to the two of you.

As you can see there was a lot of near hits or collisions happening during my observation and it seems that all actions seemed to be about people or birds going in opposite directions. The black bird flying in a different direction while the pigeon almost gets run over. The people on bikes vs the people in cars. Again, these all seem to point to where things are and have been going with your interaction with each other. The base energy tells me that there is no vibrational flow in the same direction, it's crossing.

I get that after so many "near hits" you like the guarded woman crossing the street, is going to finally get tired and sweep up all chaotic energy if you haven't already. You did say C was an ex. I feel that it's all been too damaging and someone just doesn't want to deal with it anymore. Time to clean up?

Well along with the clean up, you might feel you'll be able to allow the boy to go off with another woman. The older woman doesn't necessarily have to mean another woman, but could symbolize something that holds his attention for awhile or something he's excited about. But here's the turning point.....

Because he's a boy and not a man, he'll be coming home to his Momma eventually because he still needs her. Because I know of her and have seen her interaction with her son, I know she will be excited about his return and will welcome him completely when he does. This tells me you'll most likely continue communicating with him as the lessons to be learned are possibly more about his growth and not so much yours so you have a necessary position in his life right now.




Well that's it! This all happened as I walked to the intersection and what I saw within 10 minutes of the tower clock striking it's chimes. Please let me know what you think as I'll be looking fwd to your feedback.


ETA: I thought I would mention that you need to continue to protect yourself from this chaotic, collisional type energy that is obviously present between the two of you! Good luck and take care.

 

[katieb]

I'll be writing up mine shortly stopped at a friend's house

 

[zayats]

I'll be writing up mine shortly stopped at a friend's house

No worries I'll wait.

 

[zayats]

Oh man, I really want to try this! It's still Friday here for quite a while!
Anyone want to exchange?

I hope you'll find somebody. If not, you can always try to do it for yourself and report back We'll sure be interested!

 

[Dluv]

I hope you'll find somebody. If not, you can always try to do it for yourself and report back We'll sure be interested!

Haha was thinking about that... But won't it tend to be biased? Just like reading for yourself?
Maybe I will do it. Post my q, and perhaps get some help on the interp, if I seem way off...?

Eta: I'm doing it!
My q is should I wait for v? Will he come back for me?

 

[zayats]

Haha was thinking about that... But won't it tend to be biased? Just like reading for yourself?
Maybe I will do it. Post my q, and perhaps get some help on the interp, if I seem way off...?

Eta: I'm doing it!
My q is should I wait for v? Will he come back for me?

No, I don't think it will be biased. I think maybe it's closer to the "original idea" as it's the angels revealing something to you, kind of like self-help too. And, of course, you know like no-one else some subtle signs that can be symbolic on the personal level.

I'm curious about what you'll come up with Let us know!

 

[Flames]

No, I don't think it will be biased. I think maybe it's closer to the "original idea" as it's the angels revealing something to you, kind of like self-help too. And, of course, you know like no-one else some subtle signs that can be symbolic on the personal level.

I'm curious about what you'll come up with Let us know!

Hi zayats,
Is it alright to try this for ourselves even if someone else just tried it for us? Because now I'm really curious to see what comes up...if the impressions are similar. I know this isn't quite the same thing...but, everyday, I notice the same name being called out..at least, three times a day...for the past two weeks - John this and John that. I'll walk by someone's house while they're on the phone and I'll hear them right at the moment when this name is being spoken. "Hi John. How are you?" Or I'll be sitting at a cafe and someone's yelling out to a John. Or in passing, I'll get a part of a conversation and the name John is in it. That can't be a coincidence, right? Just now, coming back from lunch, I heard the name again. LOL