Dear Yora, (hello fellow Dutchy!),
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Haha! Hello!!
*huggles*
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There is a physical/emotional blockage near your heart and heart chakra. I know you have had many knocks in that area. There is a persistent feeling of pain and sadness there. You could help solve that by engaging in areas and activities that are heart-centered and allow for more self love and self forgiveness. The people who have hurt you are almost all gone from your life - but you are still carrying that. Please let go
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Yes, yesterday i aproached such a person because i wanted to clear the air and she reacted not very open so i had to let her go, i didn't want to have this tiring loose thread if we couldn't resolve things. I talked about stuff happening a long time ago, i felt she had a grudge she didn't say anything when i talked to her online. Innitially i wanted to remove her from facebook and such things immidiatly but i pulled out a brian froud faerie oracle cards and that card made me think i had to be brave and first talk to her and try to talk about it. It didn't go very well, but atleast i did what i felt i had to do. Blegh thinking (feeling
) about it and her energies as i remember them in a more negative state makes me a bit nauscious. (just a bit
) I can carry allot of things from the past with me, but now starting to change my visions, in a big breakthrough i learned that i had to remind myself and know that i am good the way i am, with a heart on the right place so to speak and that that was for me the most important, that others could choose to do or think as they pleased but this is me! Ofcourse i have to learn on the way (another thing i've started to really learn, to not wait until something is right, but to dare and try then and there!
When it works out it's great, when it doesn't it's also great because i've tried, instead of standing continiously still on one place lol) What was my point again! Ah yes! I'm standing up for myself now, i try to be brave.
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There is a distinct physical/mental blockage on the forehead. You might feel pain there now and again. You are working very very hard (and with your heart) to get your 3rd eye open and are often focused on the future. While that is not a bad thing per se - it needs to be balanced more with grounding and being in the now. If you do receive pain there again, take some time to massage your feet, eat something or do a grounding exercise. If you do want some more 3rd eye love - play with the Faeries.
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I do have some head issues, an annoying strain yesterday and right now i had it too a bit, hard to explain!! Consciously i am not trying to open it, maybe because i did so in the past it's something i have gotten used to and might do automaticly. I also remember having some fear about it because it could hurt (headache thingies
) and being afraid to close it off too much. If i focus on it now i can feel that my third eye is open, not that forcefully so that i get a non pleasant feeling on my head but on the automatic. I have forgotten!!! I love faeries so that will be no problem! It will be more play then work and lots of intruigingness! Also being in the now is something i have to work on (and am working on, i borrowed eckhart tolle's the power of now book from the library too yay!) being in the now can get one in a true happiness state also indeed! I'll give the feet a good rub if it happens again thank you!
(note after i had finished my feedback to you already, it feels like it's in the back of my head a bit now on the left side. ^^;; Don't know if that information helps! ieeh!)
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Shoulders are also a concern, as you often carry more then you should. You shouldn't help others out by carrying them. In the end, they won't appreciate it and you will feel weary and tired. Please give others back their responsibility in their lives. Remind yourself - I'm not a mother to X, Y or Z.
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Haha yes my issue with letting go of the control, i have a sort of ocd but then internally. I used to have ocd where i had to do things outwardly, not anymore though!! Still it changed and evolved into other things. Now i do that mentally and energetically, i have to feel safe about the person to let it go. >.> I have to visually see them doing well and being healthy, and also use my feelings to feel future feelings,like when they are what i want them to be happy and healthy! And thinking sentences that will help and make me feel safe about it. (ugh i feel the headstrain now a bit and a bit tired of talking about the fear problems i have
) I'm starting to learn that i cannot take the responsibility because they have their own path to take and to learn and expierence from that. Quite hard to let it go! Working on it. >.> Also afraid that because of how much energy i gave that i will take others energy like and i don't want to do that! Afraid that when i look someone in the eye i have a feeling of fear and that something bad will happen to them or that i'll accellerate the process. Although i feel that this shouldn't be this way for me,it's still hard, it's quite rooted.
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Most of your energy is in the trunk/middle part of your body. While this can give you a great and energetic feeling, you are missing out on energy in your hands & arms, legs & feet and clear energy in your head. A way to get more connected is to do more physical things like working in the garden, walking and talking, and physical workouts.
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also true
Very percepteive haha! i was wondering about how to go about that one thank you.
<3
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Spiritually speaking - you haven't found your feet yet. It's like you are shifting between child, adult and mother energy. You don't consider yourself a spiritual adult yet - causing you to do things that aren't right for you - switching then to adulthood sometimes so you can fix them and sometimes to mother energy so you can help others.
Please center yourself in spiritual adulthood. You deserve to be the creator of your life and release those insecure tendencies. Motherhood is a loving energy that should be tempered by Fatherhood energy. Take some time to invest in that by spending some premium time with the Emperor or the Kings in your Tarot Deck or a physical mentor that is male.
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True!! Doing the switcharoo between those!
I will, thank you, i can be insecure, maybe also somewhere afraid to let go of what i am used to because it will probably change allot. ^^; It feels like the right tip for me to spend time with the fatherhood energy.
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Overall: you are a very free and beautiful spirit. I sense mostly pink and flowers around you. It's exciting to see how much you can grow! Your potential is quite nice to see