It's tonight already....OK here goes.
This experience took place over many hours...because I was experiencing everything in real time...
A few years ago I was awoken at approx 4 AM...I became restless and rolled onto my side...
To my amazement I saw this little light, something like a mayfly's. It was about as big as a match head...it seemed ever so small....Yet...
It popped , rattled, banged loudly, changed colours. Something like a childs colourful, rolling. lit up rattle... while all the time growing in size and intensity...it seemed far away and was approaching, fast...rattling, popping,flashing,roaring, banging.. .
It became so bright that I soon forgot where I was and became totally transfixed and involved with this pulsating great big orb that hovered right in front of my eyes and still growing in size...There was no I any more...
Transfixed, I could hear many things and many languages, many,many,many...so I listened intently ..so intently that all I was, was listening...trying to decipher, though never catching anything in particular...I was lost in listening , completely lost.
I then became something...an animated something...then another something...many somethings...until eventually I was a person, many persons . The one that caught my complete attention was in a very bad place, in a bad dream,yet so real...I could feel everything....Transfixed,frightened , scared,horrified, because something,I know not what, was going to get me...I became lost in the terrors and the emotional horrors surrounding me.
Somehow, I got slam dunked back into my ordinary aware state...I lay back down on the bed sweating ,scared of what just happened...I had no idea what was going on...I knew I was wide awake and that something just sucked me in and spat me out...and...that someone was in really big trouble somewhere...Yahhhh...!
I lay there for what I would suppose to be 15 to 20 minutes...
I was just starting to relax when a vision of 3 circles appeared in front of me...Something akin to a bulls eye target ...3 distinct circles...then when I had accustomed myself to those circles the very center contained a very small dark dot...I could just make it out...
OK, I thought ,what now...?
SLAM...
I was back into that vision...I was that person, that feeling, that horror and terror ...that person was experiencing all sorts of horrors...one after the other...Being wrapped in a web cocoon unable to move and eaten slowly by a Hugh spider.
Then shark bait...an octopus's meal...falling ,falling....run through with swords...many many horrors...betrayed and betraying...hangings...burnings...all of it very very personal.
I was in these bodies and felt every one of those terrors...bit by skin crawling bit...
Wham...I'm out of the vision ...on the bed....shaking, sweating, scared and terrified again.
In shock I just lay there confused ...
I heard...
"Existences, are the dot... held and bound in captivity, in a place of matter, forever, by FEARS...Self imprisoned by those fears. to forever experience those fears over and over again.
This ends the first circle..."
HUH...?
20 or so minutes later...
Wham ...
I'm back in that vision again only this time I'm experiencing communicating with all forms of life...carnate ,incarnate, spirit. I am a consciousness that knows exactly what the other forms are doing ...I FEEL the way they FEEL...I understand those feels which happen in an instant and that instant,were it to be translated, would take many many pages of writing for just one interaction...I just knew in an instant the whole picture and life of that consciousness...Free interactions...one after the other.
POP...
I'm back on the bed again . Only this time I'm not horrified...confused as to what was happening ,sure ,YES...bloody hell, yes!
"This is the Veil of consciousness...which surrounds the previous veil of fears..."
?????...?
another 20 minute spell...
SLIDEeee....
A much gentler slide into that same vision again...
This time I'm conscious of everything that has transpired thus far...From the first vision of horror all the way through to this part of the vision...every little step of the way, I experienced just how and what had happened.
From the twinkling little light through to this present point of observation...looking in from the outside with compassion waves thumping through me...
I 'm back on the bed...gasping in pleasure this time, as waves of love pulse through me.
"This is the Veil of forgetfulness...the one that all pass through to get into the cycles of existences... All will forget their base self...All that pass through to matter will be imprisoned until that veil of fears that guards existences is passed through ... Guard well your attentions and guard well what you fixate upon...Each veil MUST BE experienced to it's full."
Thus ended this vision....
After a while I got up and drew the three circles on the rooms menu and charge sheet...
My mind was wide awake now and not going to let me go back to sleep ...besides, it was almost dawn outside...
Many coffee's...much head scratching, plus worries about sanity...then remembered the veil of fears..
"OH YEAH...I get it ...that veil thingee...gee, I wonder if it's true for everything...I must remember to try it out...I'll re write it ..
I searched out another piece of blank paper to draw it out on , clearer this time . So I took my time to draw it...as i was concentrating I heard...
" The way in, is the way out...!
?????...?
So I drew an arrow ...it went towards the bulls eye . Then at the small dot I had the arrow bend in the middle to go through to the outside of the circles...An arrow that was bent at the center, at right angles or 90 degrees.
Many months later I realized that the breaks between those different levels was for my own sanities sake...if it happened all at once I'm sure I would not have been able to handle it...and would have lost the mental plot completely...
So a silent ,thank you, was sent to the UPPER MANAGEMENT TEAM for taking it easy on me.
I have lived it as it was given...It is very scary ...because the more fears one faces the bigger the obstacles of fear become...keeping one well away from the boundaries or limits of it's influences...
It has since become very clear that the survival instincts that all possess is part of this veil system of veils...
I have challenged this veil many many times...hence the understandings that trickle through to help bolster the courage to face ,as best I can, the proponents or keepers of these gates....There are more keepers on side with the system than there are willing escapees ... I have also found that those lost to the intellectual side of the mind are more lost and more deeply embedded into the veil as well....
back to the circles.....
On the outer circle I wrote...
"The Veil of forgetfulness..".
then.
" The Veil of consciousness"
the inner circle was
"The Veil of Fears"
Then the dot in the middle was named ..."Existence."