I only am responding to this part of the dream--your second dream/re-dream. Because the first dream is SO busy, and I'm a bit tired tonight and figure it should wait till tomorrow.
anyway, I read through it all and this 2nd part makes such good sense to me. I do worry, as ya'll have read by my responses before. I worry about being 'arrested' and fined or worse, I worry about being ridiculed and accepted. I am a worry-er. I worry about everything. Partly because I have low self esteem and confidence in myself and in my abilities at times. In a huge way, a part of me has this need to be accepted and then a part of me is also like "who cares. I am who I am". its hard to explain really.
anyway, today I took a class at the new age shop near me that was given by a shaman in our area. She (the shaman) led us in 3 separate meditations, and the last one took us back to the lower world to confront our shadow selves to find out what we needed to know.
basically my shadow self gave me the same answers as you were given in this 2nd dream. that I have a gift to share that is important and IS respected. That the people who receive my help have benefited from it and that is what matters. That I am strong and I do have these abilities that are meant to be shared with others.
I really do not worry much about the money. My desire is really more for sharing the gifts that I have with others as I feel so lucky to have them and it feels great to share them. But at the same time, I also want people to not ridicule me for these abilities. that really hurts me. I'm not sure if it is because I am an empath too and so I tend to feel things more deeply or what. However, at any rate, this class today has given me tools to use so that I AM able to protect myself from any harsh feelings others may express over what I do. I can go forward with confidence after using some of the protection skills I learned today in her class while helping others.
thnx YDM42! I'll have a try tomorrow on the first dream.