Thanks for the input! We haven't started planning anything or set a date. We have barely spoken about it since he asked the question. In fact, he still refers to me as his girlfriend and not his fiancee. He has yet to tell his mother that he asked even. So it makes me think he is questioning it too. In regards to the cards that usually come up in readings regarding this particular man they are usually contradictory- cards that show fighting and animosities as well as cards that show happiness... Which really kind of resonates with how my feelings for him swing. It is at the point now where I am not sure if I am with him because i want to be or with him because it is what is comfortable. We have been together for 6 years now and just got engaged a few months ago. One of my main complaints about the relationship was that he never expressed any interest in getting married until I left him for a little bit (2 weeks) and then he lost his job so I moved back in with him to make sure he wasn't left high and dry and he said we could always run up to the court house and get married. Romantic, right? -.- Since then we have moved in with my mother because i could not pay all the bills and feed us all with just my income. So all of that boils down to this specific question: am I with him because I truly love him or am I with him because we have a 4 year old and I strive to give her normalcy? Hence the conflicted cards in whichever spread I do on our relationship.
The other guy is a great friend I met at work. I have always felt a connection to him and I am pretty sure he also feels it. When we moved in with my mom we had to move 1088 miles south, from Ohio to Florida. I never got the chance to even tell him goodbye because we had to leave in such a hurry (which is a long story, in and of its own right). He was busy getting ready to graduate college when my fiance and I were broken up so even if he wanted to start something with me, his schedule would not have allowed it. His brother (also a coworker) was talking to me as we were embarking on our drive and clued the guy in. I got a text message from him that said "you're leaving me
". I was heartbroken by that question. Like, truly heartbroken. I sat in the car and cried for about a half hour while talking to him. I miss him terribly not even as any kind of romantic interest- just him, himself. Since that text about my leaving I have been up in the air about whether or not to spill my guts to him just to clear the air. I am afraid if I do this, however, he will stop wanting to even talk to me due to the awkward factor. Spreads on this usually seem to say that he won't react as negatively as I think, and strength usually pops up. However i am crippled by fears of ruining a perfectly good friendship over some possibly un-reciprocated elevated emotions.
When all of that is said and done Strength coming up makes a lot of sense. However, i have a hard time discerning what is being said in each scenario. I wish I could sit down and have a chat with that woman and her lion. If only the cards could physically speak, facepalm you and tell you 'you shoulda had a v-8', or something. Lol. That would be incredibly helpful, instead I am just a big ol' ball of confusion and doubt. Bummer. Lol
Sorry for the length on this post, I wanted to give a little more insight as to why I am so confused as my new stalker card... Also, it is my first time ever really being stalked this intensely by a card. Lol